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myself because I think I can or I will never have that biggest thing of my life, he said it with bitterness and full of regrets.
I can feel the emptiness he had inside. However, I want to clear out my curiosity.
May I know what that biggest thing of yours is? I asked him.
I n a distance I can see Brads car. Grace called me out that Brad was already here to pick me up.
Is he your boyfriend? Jake asked me with some kind of deep dim feelings in his eyes.
Yes, I need to go, I hurry up and avoid looking at his eyes. I walked away going to Brads car and when I got three steps away
from him.
Jake shouted out, You! Its you Helen is that biggest thing that Im pointing to, he shouted it with full of regrets. And I looked
back unto him. I can see in his face that he was expecting something. I want to run unto him, but how about Brad? I asked
myself. Then I preferred to continue walking.
Jake was standing at his knees and grieved. He felt full of regrets and runaway going to his room.
I can really felt the pain coming back and these feelings of mine for Helen for how many years. I know I was acting so numb

at that time because I dont have enough strength to fight for my feelings for her. I was so dull and so weak.
He was hitting his head at his bed. Then he sat at the floor beside the bed and hugging his knees and was grieving.
When I get near to brad, he embraced me. I felt so guilty and then I cried.
Brad, I wanted to talk to you, I told Brad with a sadness of my voice. I think its really time for me to say goodbye to Brad and
face whatever I need to be face.
I know Helen what were you thinking about. I was alarmed when Grace called me that Jake was going home, Brad said with
loneliness in his voice.
You already know that Jake was going home? I asked him full of curiosity.
Yes, Helen. I have prepared myself for what possibly could happen. I know that we were not meant for each other, he paused
for a while and then continued with a smile, because my