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calling Jake and she is waving her hand full of excitement.
I went out because I cannot control my feelings. I feel like Im going to explode. I feel again the tears running down to my
cheeks. I was walking near the lake at the back of Graces house. When I heard there were brushing some kind at the grass
and then I was alarmed. Then Jake showed up. I was so shocked and nervous again.
Hey! You looked so shocked! Jake said with a smile in his face.
I only sighed because I have nothing to say. All the feelings that I have for him for how many years has just come again. I
took a deep breath and then he started to talk again.
Hows your life? Jake eyed me.
I smile at him with pain and just want to tell him all the things I have inside for how many years.
Well, its okay. It was just there were many changes in my life after you left.
Ohand then, what are those changes?
In his gaze, I can feel that he was expecting something for me to say.
Like having a boyfriend and a job, I faced at the lake to avoid his eyes. Jake just looked down and I can see the expression
of his face was some kind of showing some disappointment.
Are you happy with him? he cut the silence.
I need to be honest now, I told myself.
Not so, I said it in a pensive voice. Why? Jake asked.
I just felt that way I said it with bitterness.
Then he spoke out, Helen? Do you know what are the things that I needed to be settle or done here? Jake asked as if he has
something more to say.
No, of course I dont know. I looked at him with curiosity.
Jake sighed, You know, I made the biggest mistake in my life by leaving those things unsettled before I left. It was just
because when I was there at Canada I felt so uneasy
about handling things out especially at my job because of that thing. And today, I felt like giving up and ready to burst