My Lady of the Chinese Courtyard | Page 2

only of her life's ideals. She instinctively
feels that they are gathering about her retreat, beating at her doors,
creeping in at her closely shuttered windows, even winning her sons
from her arms. She stands an implacable foe of progress and she will
not admit that the world is moving on, broadening its outlook and
clothing itself in a new expression. She feels that she is being left
behind with her dead gods, and she cries out against the change which
is surely but slowly coming to China, and especially to Chinese women,
with the advent of education and the knowledge of the outside world.
In a household in China a daughter-in-law is of very little importance
until she is the mother of a son. Then, from being practically a servant
of her husband's mother, she rises to place of equality and is looked
upon with respect. She has fulfilled her once great duty, the thing for
which she was created: she has given her husband a son to worship at
his grave and at the graves of his ancestors. The great prayer which

rises from the heart of all Chinese women, rich and poor, peasant and
princess, is to Kwan-yin, for the inestimable blessing of sons. "Sons!
Give me sons!" is heard in every temple. To be childless is the greatest
sorrow that can come to Chinese women, as she fully realizes that for
this cause her husband is justified in putting her away for another wife,
and she may not complain or cry out, except in secret, to her Goddess
of Mercy, who has not answered her prayers. Understanding this, we
can dimly realise the joy of Kwei-li upon the birth of her son, and her
despair upon his death.
At this time, when she was in very depths of despondency, when she
had turned from the gods of her people, when it was feared that her
sorrow, near to madness, she would take the little round ball of sleep--
opium-- that was brought rest to so many despairing women in China,
her servants brought her the Gospel of St. John, which they bought of
an itinerant colporteur in the market-place, hoping that it might interest
her. In the long nights when sleep would not come to her, she read it--
and found the peace she sought.

1
My Dear One, The house on the mountain-top has lost its soul. It is
nothing but a palace with empty windows. I go upon the terrace and
look over the valley where the sun sinks a golden red ball, casting long
purple shadows on the plain. Then I remember that thou art not coming
from the city to me, and I stay to myself that there can be no dawn that
I care to see, and no sunset to gladden my eyes, unless I share it with
thee.
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But do not think I am unhappy. I do everything the same as if thou wert
here, and in everything I say, "Would this please my master?" Meh-ki
wished to put thy long chair away, as she said it was too big; but I did
not permit. It must rest where I can look at it and imagine I see thee
lying it, smoking thy water pipe; and the small table is always near by,

where thou canst reach out thy hand for thy papers and the drink thou
lovest. Meh-ki also brought out the dwarf pine-tree and put it on the
terrace, but I remembered thou saidst it looked like an old man who had
been beaten in his childhood, and I gave it to her for one of the inner
courtyards. She thinks it very beautiful, and so I did once; but I have
learned to see with thine eyes, and I know now that a tree made straight
and beautiful and tall by the Gods is more to be regarded than one that
has been bent and twisted by man.
Such a long letter I am writing thee. I am so glad that though madest
me promise to write thee every seventh day, and to tell thee all that
passes within my household and my heart. Thine Honourable Mother
says it is not seemly to send communication from mine hand to thine.
She says it was a thing unheard of in her girlhood, and that we younger
generations have passed the limits of all modesty and womanliness.
She wishes me to have the writer or thy brother send thee the news of
thine household; but that I will not permit. It must come from me, thy
wife. Each one of these strokes will come to thee bearing my message.
Thou wilt not tear the covering roughly as thou didst those great
official letters; nor wilt thou crush the