The Touchstone | Page 6

drawer.
The letters were tied in packets of thirty or forty. There were a great
many packets. On some of the envelopes the ink was fading; on others,
which bore the English post-mark, it was still fresh. She had been dead
hardly three years, and she had written, at lengthening intervals, to the
last. . . .
He undid one of the earlier packets--little notes written during their first
acquaintance at Hillbridge. Glennard, on leaving college, had begun
life in his uncle's law office in the old university town. It was there that,
at the house of her father, Professor Forth, he had first met the young
lady then chiefly distinguished for having, after two years of a
conspicuously unhappy marriage, returned to the protection of the
paternal roof.

Mrs. Aubyn was at that time an eager and somewhat tragic young
woman, of complex mind and undeveloped manners, whom her crude
experience of matrimony had fitted out with a stock of generalizations
that exploded like bombs in the academic air of Hillbridge. In her
choice of a husband she had been fortunate enough, if the paradox be
permitted, to light on one so signally gifted with the faculty of putting
himself in the wrong that her leaving him had the dignity of a
manifesto--made her, as it were, the spokeswoman of outraged
wifehood. In this light she was cherished by that dominant portion of
Hillbridge society which was least indulgent to conjugal differences,
and which found a proportionate pleasure in being for once able to feast
openly on a dish liberally seasoned with the outrageous. So much did
this endear Mrs. Aubyn to the university ladies that they were disposed
from the first to allow her more latitude of speech and action than the
ill-used wife was generally accorded in Hillbridge, where misfortune
was still regarded as a visitation designed to put people in their proper
place and make them feel the superiority of their neighbors. The young
woman so privileged combined with a kind of personal shyness an
intellectual audacity that was like a deflected impulse of coquetry: one
felt that if she had been prettier she would have had emotions instead of
ideas. She was in fact even then what she had always remained: a
genius capable of the acutest generalizations, but curiously
undiscerning where her personal susceptibilities were concerned. Her
psychology failed her just where it serves most women and one felt that
her brains would never be a guide to her heart. Of all this, however,
Glennard thought little in the first year of their acquaintance. He was at
an age when all the gifts and graces are but so much undiscriminated
food to the ravening egoism of youth. In seeking Mrs. Aubyn's
company he was prompted by an intuitive taste for the best as a pledge
of his own superiority. The sympathy of the cleverest woman in
Hillbridge was balm to his craving for distinction: it was public
confirmation of his secret sense that he was cut out for a bigger place. It
must not be understood that Glennard was vain. Vanity contents itself
with the coarsest diet; there is no palate so fastidious as that of
self-distrust. To a youth of Glennard's aspirations the encouragement of
a clever woman stood for the symbol of all success. Later, when he had
begun to feel his way, to gain a foothold, he would not need such

support; but it served to carry him lightly and easily over what is often
a period of insecurity and discouragement.
It would be unjust, however, to represent his interest in Mrs. Aubyn as
a matter of calculation. It was as instinctive as love, and it missed being
love by just such a hair-breadth deflection from the line of beauty as
had determined the curve of Mrs. Aubyn's lips. When they met she had
just published her first novel, and Glennard, who afterward had an
ambitious man's impatience of distinguished women, was young
enough to be dazzled by the semi-publicity it gave her. It was the kind
of book that makes elderly ladies lower their voices and call each other
"my dear" when they furtively discuss it; and Glennard exulted in the
superior knowledge of the world that enabled him to take as a matter of
course sentiments over which the university shook its head. Still more
delightful was it to hear Mrs. Aubyn waken the echoes of academic
drawing-rooms with audacities surpassing those of her printed page.
Her intellectual independence gave a touch of comradeship to their
intimacy, prolonging the illusion of college friendships based on a
joyous interchange of heresies. Mrs. Aubyn and Glennard represented
to each other the augur's wink behind the Hillbridge idol: they walked
together in that light of young omniscience from which fate so
curiously excludes one's