The Three Taverns | Page 6

and how many a time again,?Have I said I should be with you in Rome!?He who is always coming never comes,?Or comes too late, you may have told yourselves;?And I may tell you now that after me,?Whether I stay for little or for long,?The wolves are coming. Have an eye for them,?And a more careful ear for their confusion?Than you need have much longer for the sound?Of what I tell you -- should I live to say?More than I say to Caesar. What I know?Is down for you to read in what is written;?And if I cloud a little with my own?Mortality the gleam that is immortal,?I do it only because I am I --?Being on earth and of it, in so far?As time flays yet the remnant. This you know;?And if I sting men, as I do sometimes,?With a sharp word that hurts, it is because?Man's habit is to feel before he sees;?And I am of a race that feels. Moreover,?The world is here for what is not yet here?For more than are a few; and even in Rome,?Where men are so enamored of the Cross?That fame has echoed, and increasingly,?The music of your love and of your faith?To foreign ears that are as far away?As Antioch and Haran, yet I wonder?How much of love you know, and if your faith?Be the shut fruit of words. If so, remember?Words are but shells unfilled. Jews have at least?A Law to make them sorry they were born?If they go long without it; and these Gentiles,?For the first time in shrieking history,?Have love and law together, if so they will,?For their defense and their immunity?In these last days. Rome, if I know the name,?Will have anon a crown of thorns and fire?Made ready for the wreathing of new masters,?Of whom we are appointed, you and I, --?And you are still to be when I am gone,?Should I go presently. Let the word fall,?Meanwhile, upon the dragon-ridden field?Of circumstance, either to live or die;?Concerning which there is a parable,?Made easy for the comfort and attention?Of those who preach, fearing they preach in vain.?You are to plant, and then to plant again?Where you have gathered, gathering as you go;?For you are in the fields that are eternal,?And you have not the burden of the Lord?Upon your mortal shoulders. What you have?Is a light yoke, made lighter by the wearing,?Till it shall have the wonder and the weight?Of a clear jewel, shining with a light?Wherein the sun and all the fiery stars?May soon be fading. When Gamaliel said?That if they be of men these things are nothing,?But if they be of God they are for none?To overthrow, he spoke as a good Jew,?And one who stayed a Jew; and he said all.?And you know, by the temper of your faith,?How far the fire is in you that I felt?Before I knew Damascus. A word here,?Or there, or not there, or not anywhere,?Is not the Word that lives and is the life;?And you, therefore, need weary not yourselves?With jealous aches of others. If the world?Were not a world of aches and innovations,?Attainment would have no more joy of it.?There will be creeds and schisms, creeds in creeds,?And schisms in schisms; myriads will be done?To death because a farthing has two sides,?And is at last a farthing. Telling you this,?I, who bid men to live, appeal to Caesar.?Once I had said the ways of God were dark,?Meaning by that the dark ways of the Law.?Such is the glory of our tribulations;?For the Law kills the flesh that kills the Law,?And we are then alive. We have eyes then;?And we have then the Cross between two worlds --?To guide us, or to blind us for a time,?Till we have eyes indeed. The fire that smites?A few on highways, changing all at once,?Is not for all. The power that holds the world?Away from God that holds himself away --?Farther away than all your works and words?Are like to fly without the wings of faith --?Was not, nor ever shall be, a small hazard?Enlivening the ways of easy leisure?Or the cold road of knowledge. When our eyes?Have wisdom, we see more than we remember;?And the old world of our captivities?May then become a smitten glimpse of ruin,?Like one where vanished hewers have had their day?Of wrath on Lebanon. Before we see,?Meanwhile, we suffer; and I come to you,?At last, through many storms and through much night.
Yet whatsoever I have undergone,?My keepers in this instance are not hard.?But for the chance of an ingratitude,?I might indeed be curious of their mercy,?And fearful of their leisure while I wait,?A few leagues out of Rome. Men go to Rome,?Not always to return -- but not that now.?Meanwhile, I seem to think you look at me?With eyes that are at last more credulous?Of my