The Suffering of Being Kafka

The Suffering of Being Kafka

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Title: The Suffering of Being Kafka
Author: Sam Vaknin
Release Date: June 23, 2004 [eBook #12701]
Language: English
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C O N T E N T S

Short Fiction A Beheaded Cart Language of Black and Red On the Bus
to Town The Butterflies are Laughing The Con Man Cometh Janusz
Courts Dinah My Affair with Jesus The Last Days The Future of
Madeleine The Out Kid Pierre's Friends Death of the Poet Redemption
Shalev is Silent Pet Snail Write Me a Letter
Poetry of Healing and Abuse Our Love Alivid Moi Aussi Cutting to
Existence A Hundred Children The Old Gods Wander In the
Concentration Camp Called Home The Miracle of the Kisses Fearful
Love My Putrid Lover When You Wake the Morning Narcissism
Prague at Dusk In Moist Propinquity Prowling Getting Old Sally Ann
Selfdream Snowflake Haiku Twinkle Star Synthetic Joy Tableaux (van
Gogh)
The Author

The Suffering of Being Kafka
Short Fiction
A Beheaded Cart
by Sam Vaknin
(In Hebrew, the word "Agala" means both cart and the feminine form
of calf. A beheaded calf is among the sacrificial offerings enumerated
in the Bible).
My grandfather, cradling an infant's crib, departed. Navigating left and
right, far along the pavement, he reached a concrete, round, post. There
he rested, sheltered from the humid sun by peeling posters for
lachrymose Turkish films. He pushed the crib outside the penumbral

circle and waited.
Curious folks besieged the old man and his orphaned frame and then
proceeded to buy from him the salted seeds and sweets that he lay,
meticulously organised, inside the crib. My grandfather smiled at them
through sea-blue eyes, as he wrapped the purchased sweetmeats in
rustling brown paper bags.
My embarrassed uncles built for him a creaking wooden cart from
remaindered construction materials. They painted it green and mounted
it on large, thin-tyred, wheels borrowed from an ancient pram. They
attached to it a partitioned table-top confiscated from the greengrocer
down the lane. Every morning, forehead wrinkled, my grandfather
would fill the wooden compartments with various snacks and trinkets,
at pains to separate them neatly. Black sunflower seeds, white pumpkin
seeds, the salted and the sweet, tiny plastic toys bursting with candies,
whistles, and rattles.
Still, he never gave up his crib, installing it on top of his squeaking
vehicle, and filling it to its tattered brim with a rainbow of offerings. At
night, he stowed it under the cart, locking it behind its two crumbling
doors, among the unsold merchandise.
With sunrise, my grandfather would exit the house and head towards
the miniature plot of garden adjoining it. He would cross the patch,
stepping carefully on a pebbled path in its midst. Then, sighing but
never stooping, he would drive his green trolley - a tall and stout and
handsome man, fair-skinned and sapphire-eyed. "A movie star" - they
gasped behind his back. Day in and day out, he impelled his rickety
pushcart to its concrete post, there dispensing to the children with a
smile, a permanence till dusk. With sunset, he gathered his few goods,
bolted the fledgling flaps, and pushed back home, a few steps away.
When he grew old, he added to his burden a stool with an attached
umbrella, to shield him from the elements, and a greenish nylon sheet
to protect his wares. He became a fixture in this town of my birth. His
lime cart turned into a meeting spot - "by Pardo", they would say,
secure in the knowledge that he would always be there, erect