that she was wrong.
To call 'er back I'll never lift a 'and;
She'll never 'ear frum me by word
or sign.
Per'aps, some day, she'll come to understand
The mess she's
made o' this 'ere life o' mine.
Oh, I ain't much to look at, I admit.
But'im! The knock-kneed, swivel-eyed misfit?...
VII. The Siren
She sung a song; an' I sat silent there,
Wiv bofe 'ands grippin' 'ard on
me chair;
Me 'eart, that yesterdee I thort wus broke
Wiv 'umpin sich
a 'eavy load o' care,
Come swelling in me throat like I would choke.
I felt 'ot blushes climbin' to me 'air.
'Twas like that feelin' when the Spring wind breaves
Sad music in the
sof'ly rustlin' leaves.
An' when a bloke sits down an' starts to chew
Crook thorts, wivout quite knowin' why 'e grieves
Fer things 'e's done
'e didn't ort to do--
Fair winded wiv the 'eavy sighs 'e 'eaves.
She sung a song; an' orl at once I seen
The kind o' crool an' 'eartless
broot I been.
In ev'ry word I read it like a book--
The slanter game
I'd played wiv my Doreen--
I 'eard it in 'er song; an' in 'er look
I
seen wot made me feel fair rotten mean.
Poor, 'urt Doreen! My tender bit o' fluff!
Ar, men don't understand;
they're fur too rough;
Their ways is fur too coarse wiv lovin' tarts;
They never gives 'em symperthy enough.
They treats 'em 'arsh; they
tramples on their 'earts,
Becos their own crool 'earts is leather-tough.
She sung a song; an' orl them bitter things
That chewin' over lovers'
quarrils brings
Guv place to thorts of sorrer an' remorse.
Like when
some dilly punter goes an' slings
'Is larst, lone deener on some
stiffened 'orse,
An' learns them vain regrets wot 'urts an' stings.
'Twas at a beano where I lobs along
To drown them memories o'
fancied wrong.
I swears I never knoo that she'd be there.
But when I
met 'er eye--O, 'struth, 'twas strong!
'Twas bitter strong, that jolt o'
dull despair!
'Er look o' scorn!...An' then, she sung a song.
The choon was one o' them sad, mournful things
That ketch yeh in
the bellers 'ere, and brings
Tears to yer eyes. The words was uv a tart
'Oo's trackin' wiv a silly coot 'oo slings
'Er love aside, an' breaks 'er
tender 'eart....
But 'twasn't that; it was the way she sings.
To 'ear 'er voice!...A bloke 'ud be a log
'Oo kep' 'is block. Me mind
wus in a fog
Of sorrer for to think 'ow I wus wrong;
Ar, I 'ave been
a fair ungrateful 'og!
The feelin' that she put into that song
'Ud melt
the 'eart-strings of a chiner dog.
I listens wiv me 'eart up in me throat;
I drunk in ev'ry word an' ev'ry
note.
Tears trembles in 'er voice when she tells 'ow
That tart snuffed
out becos 'e never wrote.
An' then I seen 'ow I wus like that cow.
Wiv suddin shame me guilty soul wus smote.
Doreen she never looked my way; but stood
'Arf turned away, an'
beefed it out reel good,
Until she sang that bit about the grave;
"Too
late 'e learned 'e 'ad misunderstood!"
An' then--Gorstrooth! The
pleadin' look she gave
Fair in me face 'ud melt a'eart o' wood.
I dunno 'ow I seen that evenin' thro'.
They muster thort I was 'arf
shick, I knoo.
But I 'ad 'urt Doreen wivout no call;
I seen me dooty,
wot I 'ad to do.
O, strike! I could 'a' blubbed before 'em all!
But I sat
tight, an' never cracked a boo.
An' when at larst the tarts they makes a rise,
A lop-eared coot wiv 'air
down to 'is eyes
'E 'ooks on to Doreen, an' starts to roam
Fer 'ome
an' muvver. I lines up an' cries,
"'An's orf! I'm seein' this 'ere cliner
'ome!"
An' there we left 'im, gapin' wiv surprise.
She never spoke; she never said no word;
But walked beside me like
she never 'eard.
I swallers 'ard, an' starts to coax an' plead,
I sez I'm
dead ashamed o' wot's occurred.
She don't reply; she never takes no
'eed;
Jist stares before 'er like a startled bird.
I tells 'er, never can no uvver tart
Be 'arf wot she is, if we 'ave to part.
I tells 'er that me life will be a wreck.
It ain't no go. But when I
makes a start
To walk away, 'er arms is roun' me neck.
"Ah, Kid!"
she sobs. "Yeh nearly broke me 'eart!"
I dunno wot I done or wot I said.
But 'struth! I'll not forgit it till I'm
dead--
That night when 'ope back in me brisket lobs:
'Ow my
Doreen she lays 'er little 'ead
Down on me shoulder 'ere, an' sobs an'
sobs;
An' orl the lights goes sorter blurred an' red.
Say, square an' all--It don't seem right, some'ow,
To say such things;
but wot I'm feelin' now
'As come at times, I s'pose, to uvver men
When you 'ave 'ad a reel ole ding-dong row,
Say, ain't it bonzer
makin' up agen?
Straight wire, it's almost worth...Ar, I'm a cow!
To think I'd ever seek to 'arm a 'air
Of 'er dear 'ead
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