The Poor Clare | Page 9

sprinkling of hoar-frost that
covered the ground; nevertheless, I saw an old woman, whom I
instinctively suspected to be the object of my search, in a sheltered
covert on one side of my path. I lingered and watched her. She must
have been considerably above the middle size in her prime, for when
she raised herself from the stooping position in which I first saw her,
there was something fine and commanding in the erectness of her
figure. She drooped again in a minute or two, and seemed looking for
something on the ground, as, with bent head, she turned off from the
spot where I gazed upon her, and was lost to my sight. I fancy I missed
my way, and made a round in spite of the landlord's directions; for by
the time I had reached Bridget's cottage she was there, with no
semblance of hurried walk or discomposure of any kind. The door was
slightly ajar. I knocked, and the majestic figure stood before me,
silently awaiting the explanation of my errand. Her teeth were all gone,
so the nose and chin were brought near together; the gray eyebrows
were straight, and almost hung over her deep, cavernous eyes, and the
thick white hair lay in silvery masses over the low, wide, wrinkled
forehead. For a moment, I stood uncertain how to shape my answer to
the solemn questioning of her silence.
"Your name is Bridget Fitzgerald, I believe?"
She bowed her head in assent.
"I have something to say to you. May I come in? I am unwilling to keep

you standing."
"You cannot tire me," she said, and at first she seemed inclined to deny
me the shelter of her roof. But the next moment--she had searched the
very soul in me with her eyes during that instant--she led me in, and
dropped the shadowing hood of her gray, draping cloak, which had
previously hid part of the character of her countenance. The cottage
was rude and bare enough. But before the picture of the Virgin, of
which I have made mention, there stood a little cup filled with fresh
primroses. While she paid her reverence to the Madonna, I understood
why she had been out seeking through the clumps of green in the
sheltered copse. Then she turned round, and bade me be seated. The
expression of her face, which all this time I was studying, was not bad,
as the stories of my last night's landlord had led me to expect; it was a
wild, stern, fierce, indomitable countenance, seamed and scarred by
agonies of solitary weeping; but it was neither cunning nor malignant.
"My name is Bridget Fitzgerald," said she, by way of opening our
conversation.
"And your husband was Hugh Fitzgerald, of Knock Mahon, near
Kildoon, in Ireland?"
A faint light came into the dark gloom of her eyes.
"He was."
"May I ask if you had any children by him?"
The light in her eyes grew quick and red. She tried to speak, I could see;
but something rose in her throat, and choked her, and until she could
speak calmly, she would fain not speak at all before a stranger. In a
minute or so she said--"I had a daughter--one Mary Fitzgerald,"--then
her strong nature mastered her strong will, and she cried out, with a
trembling wailing cry: "Oh, man! what of her?- -what of her?"
She rose from her seat, and came and clutched at my arm, and looked
in my eyes. There she read, as I suppose, my utter ignorance of what

had become of her child; for she went blindly back to her chair, and sat
rocking herself and softly moaning, as if I were not there; I not daring
to speak to the lone and awful woman. After a little pause, she knelt
down before the picture of Our Lady of the Holy Heart, and spoke to
her by all the fanciful and poetic names of the Litany.
"O Rose of Sharon! O Tower of David! O Star of the Sea! have ye no
comfort for my sore heart? Am I for ever to hope? Grant me at least
despair!"--and so on she went, heedless of my presence. Her prayers
grew wilder and wilder, till they seemed to me to touch on the borders
of madness and blasphemy. Almost involuntarily, I spoke as if to stop
her.
"Have you any reason to think that your daughter is dead?
She rose from her knees, and came and stood before me.
"Mary Fitzgerald is dead," said she. "I shall never see her again in the
flesh. No tongue ever told me; but I know she is dead. I have yearned
so to see her, and my heart's will is fearful and strong: it would have
drawn her to me