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thousand ways, and yet trying
to be happy, and good, and useful; and they do not know that at the root of it all is
self-will robbing them of the blessing. Christ said to Peter, "Peter, deny yourself." But
instead of doing that, Peter said, "I will deny my Lord and not myself." He never said it
in words, but Christ said to him in the last night, "Thou shalt deny Me," and he did it.
What was the cause of this? Self-pleasing. He became afraid when the woman servant
charged him with belonging to Jesus, and three times said, "I know not this man, I have
nothing to do with Him." He denied Christ. Just think of it! No wonder Peter wept those
bitter tears. It was a choice between self, that ugly, cursed self, and that beautiful, blessed
Son of God; and Peter chose self. No wonder that he thought: "Instead of denying myself,
I have denied Jesus; what a choice I have made!" No wonder that he wept bitterly.
Christians, look at your own lives in the light of the words of Jesus. Do you find there
self-will, self-pleasing? Remember this: every time you please yourself, you deny Jesus.
It is one of the two. You must please Him only, and deny self, or you must please
yourself and deny Him. Then follows self-confidence, self-trust, self-effort,
self-dependence. What was it that led Peter to deny Jesus? Christ had warned him; why
did he not take warning? Self-confidence. He was so sure: "Lord, I love Thee. For three
years I have followed Thee. Lord, I deny that it ever can be. I am ready to go to prison
and to death." It was simply self-confidence. People have often asked me, "What is the
reason I fail? I desire so earnestly, and pray so fervently, to live in God's will." And my
answer generally is, "Simply because you trust yourself." They answer me: "No, I do not;
I know I am not good; and I know that God is willing to keep me, and I put my trust in
Jesus." But I reply, "No, my brother; no; if you trusted God and Jesus, you could not fall,
but you trust yourself." Do let us believe that the cause of every failure in the Christian
life is nothing but this. I trust this cursed self, instead of trusting Jesus. I trust my own
strength, instead of the almighty strength of God. And that is why Christ says, "This self
must be denied."
Then there is self-exaltation, another form of the works of self. Ah, how much pride and
jealousy is there in the Christian world; how much sensitiveness to what men say of us or
think of us; how much desire of human praise and pleasing men, instead of always living
in the presence of God, with the one thought: "Am I pleasing to Him?" Christ said, "How
can ye believe who receive honor one of another?" Receiving honor of one another
renders a life of faith absolutely impossible. This self started from hell, it separated us

from God, it is a cursed deceiver that leads us astray from Jesus.
Now comes the third point. What are we to do to get rid of it? Jesus answers us in the
words of our text: "If any man will come after me, let him take up his cross and follow
me." Note it well.--I must deny myself and take Jesus himself as my life,--I must choose.
There are two lives, the self life and the Christ life; I must choose one of the two. "Follow
me," says our Lord, "make me the law of your existence, the rule of your conduct; give
me your whole heart; follow me, and I will care for all." Oh, friends, it is a solemn
exchange to have set before us; to come and, seeing the danger of this self, with its pride
and its wickedness, to cast ourselves before the Son of God, and to say, "I deny my own
life, I take Thy life to be mine."
The reason why Christians pray and pray for the Christ life to come in to them, without
result, is that the self life is not denied. You ask, "How can I get rid of this self life?" You
know the parable: the strong man kept his house until one stronger than he came in and
cast him out. Then the place was garnished and swept, but empty, and he came back with
seven other spirits worse than himself. It is only Christ Himself coming in that can cast
out self, and keep out self. This self will abide with us to the very end. Remember the
Apostle Paul; he had seen the Heavenly vision, and lest he should