The Man against the Sky | Page 8

futile animosities,?And how much for the joy of being whole,?And how much for long sorrow and old pain.?On our side there are some who may be given?To grow old wondering what he thinks of us?And some above us, who are, in his eyes,?Above himself, -- and that's quite right and English.?Yet here we smile, or disappoint the gods?Who made it so: the gods have always eyes?To see men scratch; and they see one down here?Who itches, manor-bitten to the bone,?Albeit he knows himself -- yes, yes, he knows --?The lord of more than England and of more?Than all the seas of England in all time?Shall ever wash. D'ye wonder that I laugh??He sees me, and he doesn't seem to care;?And why the devil should he? I can't tell you.
I'll meet him out alone of a bright Sunday,?Trim, rather spruce, and quite the gentleman.?"What ho, my lord!" say I. He doesn't hear me;?Wherefore I have to pause and look at him.?He's not enormous, but one looks at him.?A little on the round if you insist,?For now, God save the mark, he's growing old;?He's five and forty, and to hear him talk?These days you'd call him eighty; then you'd add?More years to that. He's old enough to be?The father of a world, and so he is.?"Ben, you're a scholar, what's the time of day?"?Says he; and there shines out of him again?An aged light that has no age or station --?The mystery that's his -- a mischievous?Half-mad serenity that laughs at fame?For being won so easy, and at friends?Who laugh at him for what he wants the most,?And for his dukedom down in Warwickshire; --?By which you see we're all a little jealous. . . .?Poor Greene! I fear the color of his name?Was even as that of his ascending soul;?And he was one where there are many others, --?Some scrivening to the end against their fate,?Their puppets all in ink and all to die there;?And some with hands that once would shade an eye?That scanned Euripides and Aeschylus?Will reach by this time for a pot-house mop?To slush their first and last of royalties.?Poor devils! and they all play to his hand;?For so it was in Athens and old Rome.?But that's not here or there; I've wandered off.?Greene does it, or I'm careful. Where's that boy?
Yes, he'll go back to Stratford. And we'll miss him??Dear sir, there'll be no London here without him.?We'll all be riding, one of these fine days,?Down there to see him -- and his wife won't like us;?And then we'll think of what he never said?Of women -- which, if taken all in all?With what he did say, would buy many horses.?Though nowadays he's not so much for women:?"So few of them," he says, "are worth the guessing."?But there's a work at work when he says that,?And while he says it one feels in the air?A deal of circumambient hocus-pocus.?They've had him dancing till his toes were tender,?And he can feel 'em now, come chilly rains.?There's no long cry for going into it,?However, and we don't know much about it.?The Fitton thing was worst of all, I fancy;?And you in Stratford, like most here in London,?Have more now in the `Sonnets' than you paid for;?He's put her there with all her poison on,?To make a singing fiction of a shadow?That's in his life a fact, and always will be.?But she's no care of ours, though Time, I fear,?Will have a more reverberant ado?About her than about another one?Who seems to have decoyed him, married him,?And sent him scuttling on his way to London, --?With much already learned, and more to learn,?And more to follow. Lord! how I see him now,?Pretending, maybe trying, to be like us.?Whatever he may have meant, we never had him;?He failed us, or escaped, or what you will, --?And there was that about him (God knows what, --?We'd flayed another had he tried it on us)?That made as many of us as had wits?More fond of all his easy distances?Than one another's noise and clap-your-shoulder.?But think you not, my friend, he'd never talk!?Talk? He was eldritch at it; and we listened --?Thereby acquiring much we knew before?About ourselves, and hitherto had held?Irrelevant, or not prime to the purpose.?And there were some, of course, and there be now,?Disordered and reduced amazedly?To resignation by the mystic seal?Of young finality the gods had laid?On everything that made him a young demon;?And one or two shot looks at him already?As he had been their executioner;?And once or twice he was, not knowing it, --?Or knowing, being sorry for poor clay?And saying nothing. . . . Yet, for all his engines,?You'll meet a thousand of an afternoon?Who strut and sun themselves and see around 'em?A world made out of more that has a reason?Than his, I swear, that he