as I
rose to the surface the next instant, immersed in the stone caldron,
where I must swim for my life Heaven only could tell how long!
"I am a capital swimmer; and this naturally gave me a degree of
self-possession. Falling as I had, I of course had pitched out some
distance from the sloping parapet. A few strokes brought me to the
edge. I really was not yet certain but that I could clamber up the face of
the wall anywhere. I hoped that I could. I felt certain at least there was
some spot where I might get hold with my hands, even if I did not
ultimately ascend it.
"I tried the nearest spot. The inclination of the wall was so vertical that
it did not even rest me to lean against it. I felt with my hands and with
my feet. Surely, I thought, there must be some fissure like those in
which that ill-omened weed had found a place for its root!
"There was none. My fingers became sore in busying themselves with
the harsh and inhospitable stones. My feet slipped from the smooth and
slimy masonry beneath the water; and several times my face came in
rude contact with the wall, when my foothold gave way on the instant
that I seemed to have found some diminutive rocky cleat upon which I
could stay myself.
"Sir, did you ever see a rat drowned in a half-filled hogshead-how he
swims round, and round, and round; and after vainly trying the sides
again and again with his paws, fixes his eyes upon the upper rim as if
he would look himself out of his watery prison?
"I thought of the miserable vermin, thought of him as I had often
watched thus his dying agonies, when a cruel urchin of eight or ten.
Boys are horribly cruel, sir; boys, women, and savages. All childlike
things are cruel; cruel from a want of thought and from perverse
ingenuity, although by instinct each of these is so tender. You may not
have observed it, but a savage is as tender to his own young as a boy is
to a favorite puppy-the same boy that will torture a kitten out of
existence. I thought then, I say, of the rat drowning in a half-filled cask
of water, and lifting his gaze out of the vessel as he grew more and
more desperate, and I flung myself on my back, and, floating thus,
fixed my eyes upon the face of the moon.
"The moon is well enough in her way, however you may look at her;
but her appearance is, to say the least of it, peculiar to a man floating on
his back in the centre of a stone tank, with a dead wall of some fifteen
or twenty feet rising squarely on every side of him!" (The young man
smiled bitterly as he said this, and shuddered once or twice before he
went on musingly.) "The last time I had noted the planet with any
emotion she was on the wane. Mary was with me; I had brought her out
here one morning to look at the view from the top of the Reservoir. She
said little of the scene, but as we talked of our old childish loves, I saw
that its fresh features were incorporating themselves with tender
memories of the past, and I was content.
"There was a rich golden haze upon the landscape, and as my own
spirits rose amid the voluptuous atmosphere, she pointed to the waning
planet, discernible like a faint gash in the welkin, and wondered how
long it would be before the leaves would fall. Strange girl! did she
mean to rebuke my joyous mood, as if we had no right to be happy
while Nature, withering in her pomp, and the sickly moon, wasting in
the blaze of noontide, were there to remind us of 'the-gone-forever'?
'They will all renew themselves, dear Mary,' said I, encouragingly, 'and
there is one that will ever keep tryst alike with thee and nature through
all seasons, if thou wilt but be true to one of us, and remain as now a
child of nature.'
"A tear sprang to her eye, and then searching her pocket for her
card-case, she remembered an engagement to be present at Miss
Lawson's opening of fall bonnets at two o'clock!
"And yet, dear, wild, wayward Mary, I thought of her now. You have
probably outlived this sort of thing, sir; but I, looking at the moon, as I
floated there upturned to her yellow light, thought of the loved being
whose tears I knew would flow when she heard of my singular fate, at
once so grotesque, yet melancholy to awfulness.
"And how often we have talked, too,
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