The Letter of the Contract | Page 4

he was acting, not on
behalf of a friend, but....

That it might be all over and done with would make no difference. Of
course it was all over and done with--if it was that. No man could love
a woman as he had loved his wife during the past six or seven years,
and still--But it wasn't that. It never had been that. If it had been--even
before they were married, even before he knew her--But she would
choke that thought back. She would choke everything back that told
against him. She developed the will to trust. She developed a trust that
acted on her doubts like a narcotic--not solving them, but dulling their
poignancy into stupor.
So March went out, and April passed, and May came in, with leaves on
the trees and tulips in the Park, and children playing on the bits of
greensward. She had walked as far as the Zoo with the two little boys,
and, having left them with their French governess, was on her way
home. People were in the habit of dropping in between four and six,
and of late she had become somewhat dependent on their company.
They kept her from thinking. Their scraps of gossip provided her, when
she talked to her husband, with topics that steered her away from
dangerous ground. He himself had given her a hint that a certain ground
was dangerous; and, though he had done it laughingly, she had grown
so sensitive as to see in his words more perhaps than they meant. She
had asked him a question on some subject--she had forgotten
what--quite remote from the mystery of the girl in gray. Leaning across
the table, with amusement on his lips and in his eyes, he had replied:
"Don't you remember the warning?
'Where the apple reddens Never pry, Lest we lose our Edens, Eve and
I.'"
Inwardly she had staggered from the words as if he had struck her,
though he had no reason to suspect that. In response she merely said,
pensively: "En sommes nous lá?"
"En sommes nous--where?"
"Where the apple reddens."

"Oh, but everybody's there."
"You mean all married people."
"Married and single."
"But married people more than single."
"I mean that we all have our illusions, and we'd better keep them as
long as possible. When we don't--"
"We lose our Edens."
"Exactly."
"So that our Edens are no more than a sort of fool's paradise."
"Ah, no; a sort of wise man's paradise, in which he keeps all he's been
able to rescue from a wicked world."
She was afraid to go on. She might learn that she and their children and
their home and their happiness had been what he had been able to
rescue from a wicked world--and that wouldn't have appeased her. Her
thoughts would have been of the wicked world from which he had
escaped more than of the paradise in which he had found shelter. She
was no holy Elisabeth, to welcome Tannhäuser back from the
Venusberg. That he should have been in the Venusberg at all could be
only a degree less torturing to her than to know he was there still.
So she kept away from subjects that would have told her more than she
feared already, taking refuge in themes she had once considered vapid
and inane. To miss nothing, she hurried homeward on that May
afternoon, so as to be beside her tea-table in the drawing-room before
any one appeared. And yet, the minute came when she cast aside all
solicitudes and hesitations.
Going up the pathway leading to the opening opposite her house, she
noticed a figure standing between the two iron posts. It was not now a
figure in gray, but one in white--in white, with a rose-colored sash, and

carrying a rose-colored parasol. Edith quickened her pace
unconsciously, urged on by fear lest the girl should move away before
she had time to reach her. In spite of a rush of incoherent emotions she
was able to reflect that she was perfectly cool, entirely self-possessed.
She was merely dominated by a need--the need of coming face to face
with this person and seeing who she was. She had no idea what she
herself would do or say, or whether or not she would do or say
anything. That was secondary; it would take care of itself. The
immediate impulse was too imperative to resist. She must at least see,
even if nothing came of her doing so. If she had any thought of a
resulting consequence it was in the assumption that her presence as
wife and woman of the world would dispel the noxious thing she had
been striving to combat for the past two months, as the sun dissipates a
miasma.
But her approaches were careful