The Death of the Lion | Page 4

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sea and before the airs had blown upon her. I had never been so
throbbingly present at such an unveiling. But when he had tossed the
last bright word after the others, as I had seen cashiers in banks,
weighing mounds of coin, drop a final sovereign into the tray, I knew a
sudden prudent alarm.
"My dear master, how, after all, are you going to do it? It's infinitely
noble, but what time it will take, what patience and independence, what
assured, what perfect conditions! Oh for a lone isle in a tepid sea!"
"Isn't this practically a lone isle, and aren't you, as an encircling
medium, tepid enough?" he asked, alluding with a laugh to the wonder
of my young admiration and the narrow limits of his little provincial
home. "Time isn't what I've lacked hitherto: the question hasn't been to
find it, but to use it. Of course my illness made, while it lasted, a great
hole--but I dare say there would have been a hole at any rate. The earth
we tread has more pockets than a billiard-table. The great thing is now
to keep on my feet."
"That's exactly what I mean."
Neil Paraday looked at me with eyes--such pleasant eyes as he had-- in
which, as I now recall their expression, I seem to have seen a dim
imagination of his fate. He was fifty years old, and his illness had been
cruel, his convalescence slow. "It isn't as if I weren't all right."

"Oh if you weren't all right I wouldn't look at you!" I tenderly said.
We had both got up, quickened as by this clearer air, and he had lighted
a cigarette. I had taken a fresh one, which with an intenser smile, by
way of answer to my exclamation, he applied to the flame of his match.
"If I weren't better I shouldn't have thought of THAT!" He flourished
his script in his hand.
"I don't want to be discouraging, but that's not true," I returned. "I'm
sure that during the months you lay here in pain you had visitations
sublime. You thought of a thousand things. You think of more and
more all the while. That's what makes you, if you'll pardon my
familiarity, so respectable. At a time when so many people are spent
you come into your second wind. But, thank God, all the same, you're
better! Thank God, too, you're not, as you were telling me yesterday,
'successful.' If YOU weren't a failure what would be the use of trying?
That's my one reserve on the subject of your recovery--that it makes
you 'score,' as the newspapers say. It looks well in the newspapers, and
almost anything that does that's horrible. 'We are happy to announce
that Mr. Paraday, the celebrated author, is again in the enjoyment of
excellent health.' Somehow I shouldn't like to see it."
"You won't see it; I'm not in the least celebrated--my obscurity protects
me. But couldn't you bear even to see I was dying or dead?" my host
enquired.
"Dead--passe encore; there's nothing so safe. One never knows what a
living artist may do--one has mourned so many. However, one must
make the worst of it. You must be as dead as you can."
"Don't I meet that condition in having just published a book?"
"Adequately, let us hope; for the book's verily a masterpiece."
At this moment the parlour-maid appeared in the door that opened from
the garden: Paraday lived at no great cost, and the frisk of petticoats,
with a timorous "Sherry, sir?" was about his modest mahogany. He
allowed half his income to his wife, from whom he had succeeded in
separating without redundancy of legend. I had a general faith in his
having behaved well, and I had once, in London, taken Mrs. Paraday
down to dinner. He now turned to speak to the maid, who offered him,
on a tray, some card or note, while, agitated, excited, I wandered to the
end of the precinct. The idea of his security became supremely dear to
me, and I asked myself if I were the same young man who had come

down a few days before to scatter him to the four winds. When I
retraced my steps he had gone into the house, and the woman--the
second London post had come in--had placed my letters and a
newspaper on a bench. I sat down there to the letters, which were a
brief business, and then, without heeding the address, took the paper
from its envelope. It was the journal of highest renown, The Empire of
that morning. It regularly came to Paraday, but I remembered that
neither of us had yet looked at the copy already delivered. This one had
a great mark on the "editorial" page,