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her orderly, sensible, housekeeping mind; she
was uneasy, even perhaps afraid; something in the house distressed her,
and she had need of me. Unless I went down, her time of rest and
change, her quite necessary holiday, in fact, would be spoilt. She was
too unselfish to say this, but it ran everywhere between the lines. I saw
it clearly now. Mrs. Franklyn, moreover--and that meant Frances
too--would like a "man in the house." It was a disagreeable phrase, a
suggestive way of hinting something she dared not state definitely. The
two women in that great, lonely barrack of a house were afraid.
My sense of duty, affection, unselfishness, whatever the composite
emotion may be termed, was stirred; also my vanity. I acted quickly,
lest reflection should warp clear, decent judgment.
"Annie," I said, when she answered the bell, "you need not send those
blouses by the post. I'll take them down tomorrow when I go. I shall be
away a week or two, possibly longer." And, having looked up a train, I
hastened out to telegraph before I could change my fickle mind.

But no desire came that night to change my mind. I was doing the right,
the necessary thing. I was even in something of a hurry to get down to
The Towers as soon as possible. I chose an early afternoon train.


Chapter III
A telegram had told me to come to a town ten miles from the house, so
I was saved the crawling train to the local station, and traveled down by
an express. As soon as we left London the fog cleared off, and an
autumn sun, though without heat in it, painted the landscape with
golden browns and yellows. My spirits rose as I lay back in the
luxurious motor and sped between the woods and hedges. Oddly
enough, my anxiety of overnight had disappeared. It was due, no doubt,
to that exaggeration of detail which reflection in loneliness brings.
Frances and I had not been separated for over a year, and her letters
from The Towers told so little. It had seemed unnatural to be deprived
of those intimate particulars of mood and feeling I was accustomed to.
We had such confidence in one another, and our affection was so deep.
Though she was but five years younger than myself, I regarded her as a
child. My attitude was fatherly.
In return, she certainly mothered me with a solicitude that never cloyed.
I felt no desire to marry while she was still alive. She painted in
watercolors with a reasonable success, and kept house for me; I wrote,
reviewed books and lectured on aesthetics; we were a humdrum couple
of quasi-artists, well satisfied with life, and all I feared for her was that
she might become a suffragette or be taken captive by one of these wild
theories that caught her imagination sometimes, and that Mabel, for one,
had fostered. As for myself, no doubt she deemed me a trifle solid or
stolid--I forget which word she preferred--but on the whole there was
just sufficient difference of opinion to make intercourse suggestive
without monotony, and certainly without quarrelling.
Drawing in deep draughts of the stinging autumn air, I felt happy and

exhilarated. It was like going for a holiday, with comfort at the end of
the journey instead of bargaining for centimes.
But my heart sank noticeably the moment the house came into view.
The long drive, lined with hostile monkey trees and formal
wellingtonias that were solemn and sedate, was mere extension of the
miniature approach to a thousand semidetached suburban "residences";
and the appearance of The Towers, as we turned the corner with a rush,
suggested a commonplace climax to a story that had begun
interestingly, almost thrillingly. A villa had escaped from the shadow
of the Crystal Palace, thumped its way down by night, grown suddenly
monstrous in a shower of rich rain, and settled itself insolently to stay.
Ivy climbed about the opulent red-brick walls, but climbed neatly and
with disfiguring effect, sham as on a prison or--the simile made me
smile--an orphan asylum. There was no hint of the comely roughness of
untidy ivy on a ruin. Clipped, trained, and precise it was, as on a
brand-new protestant church. I swear there was not a bird's nest nor a
single earwig in it anywhere. About the porch it was particularly thick,
smothering a seventeenth-century lamp with a contrast that was quite
horrible. Extensive glass-houses spread away on the farther side of the
house; the numerous towers to which the building owed its name
seemed made to hold school bells; and the windowsills, thick with
potted flowers, made me think of the desolate suburbs of Brighton or
Bexhill. In a commanding position upon the crest of a