The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 13, No. 80, June, 1864 | Page 3

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and dreamed out my dream of solitude, independence, and the

joy of being no one but myself knew where. Could I do better than
accept this invitation to enter the humble cottage, with the prospect of
an admittance also to an old woman's heart? Did I win the latter? or did
I only fancy it? Did the motherly creature believe me lost? or was her
astonishment only feigned? Was she really, despite her poverty, ready
to share her last crust with a stranger? or was the benignant glance
which gave me in my loneliness the sense of adoption merely an eye to
self-interest?
Dear old soul! One of us, at least, was simple-hearted and true,--either
she in her innocent professions, or I in my silly credulity. I have faith
that it was she. At all events, I do so cherish the memory of her
kindness, that, so far from treasuring the notion of the silver sixpence, I
hereby pledge myself, that, if ever the reminiscence I am penning
should be worth half as much to me in gold as it is in memory, I will
send Ann Harris at least one shining guinea, as a token how willingly I
would go shares with her in something.
And the guinea would not come amiss, for Ann was poor; her
clay-floored cottage boasted only its exquisite neatness, her furniture
was of the humblest, her dress the cheapest. She was too old for hard
work; her duties at the little church were light,--the profits, I fear, were
lighter; for that visitors to the remote sanctuary were rare her reception
of me was sufficient proof. As she guided me through the church, I
asked her if it was well attended. She shook her head sadly, and,
pointing in the direction of a neighboring village, answered,--
"Most of 'em go to chapel, yonder,--the more's the pity."
She told me that she had no provision for the coming winter, and feared
she must go to the Union. (It was not our own, then prosperous and
unbroken, Union, to which she dreaded emigrating.) She merely meant
the work-house; and as she spoke, her face wore a shadow that still
clouds my recollections of Honeybourne. I do not know if her fears
were realized,--if her cottage is forsaken,--if she dwells among paupers,
or sleeps in the village church-yard; but I cannot think of her as lonely
or poor or dead. Her saintly face told of blessed communion; I know
that she was rich in faith and hope; and were I assured that her spirit

had left the flesh, I should only picture her to myself standing erect at
heaven's doorway, welcoming strangers with the same serenity with
which she said to me at parting,--"I shall meet you there."
She offered me a farewell gift of flowers from her garden. It was a
beautiful cottage-garden, and many of the flowers were brilliant and
even rare, giving proof of careful, if not scientific culture. Still I
hesitated. My hands were full of sweet may, red campion, and other
native field-blossoms, which had introduced themselves to me
anonymously. They were the children of the green sod which I had
been treading so lightly on my way to the village; and, in the quiet of
my ramble, they had seemed to me like whispers from Him who made
them, and with whom I had never felt so utterly alone. I could not bear
to see them displaced by Ann's garden-belles, tempting as the latter
would have been at any other moment. She saw my indifference to her
offer. I knew she saw it working in my face. I attempted to apologize
for my preference, but she did not understand me; so I blurted out my
thought, awkwardly enough, saying,--
"Yours are beautiful; but God made these, you know,--and--and--I like
them best."
She looked down upon me gravely, pityingly, smiling, too, with a
tenderness which was neither grave nor pitying. I have seen
long-visioned people look with just that expression at the eyes of the
short-sighted, on the latter's confessing their inability to detect an
object at no great distance.
"He made them all," she said; and her words were an ascription of
praise.
They come to me often now. They bid me look farther and see more.
They tell me how mine and thine have no place in this world of His.
False distinctions shrink away from the light of the old woman's clearer
faith; I see how the ablest workers are but instruments in higher
hands,--how science, culture, inspiration itself, are but gifts to be laid
on His altar.

I need scarcely say that I at once found room for Ann's flowers in my
hand, as for her lesson in my heart. Some of the former are pressed and
laid away as a sacred
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