The Aspern Papers | Page 8

as a passage, and
little even as that. I may add that by the time the door opened again
through which the maidservant had escaped, my eyes had grown used
to the want of light.
I had not meant by my private ejaculation that I must myself cultivate

the soil of the tangled enclosure which lay beneath the windows, but
the lady who came toward me from the distance over the hard, shining
floor might have supposed as much from the way in which, as I went
rapidly to meet her, I exclaimed, taking care to speak Italian: "The
garden, the garden--do me the pleasure to tell me if it's yours!"
She stopped short, looking at me with wonder; and then, "Nothing here
is mine," she answered in English, coldly and sadly.
"Oh, you are English; how delightful!" I remarked, ingenuously. "But
surely the garden belongs to the house?"
"Yes, but the house doesn't belong to me." She was a long, lean, pale
person, habited apparently in a dull-colored dressing gown, and she
spoke with a kind of mild literalness. She did not ask me to sit down,
any more than years before (if she were the niece) she had asked Mrs.
Prest, and we stood face to face in the empty pompous hall.
"Well then, would you kindly tell me to whom I must address myself?
I'm afraid you'll think me odiously intrusive, but you know I MUST
have a garden--upon my honor I must!"
Her face was not young, but it was simple; it was not fresh, but it was
mild. She had large eyes which were not bright, and a great deal of hair
which was not "dressed," and long fine hands which
were--possibly--not clean. She clasped these members almost
convulsively as, with a confused, alarmed look, she broke out, "Oh,
don't take it away from us; we like it ourselves!"
"You have the use of it then?"
"Oh, yes. If it wasn't for that!" And she gave a shy, melancholy smile.
"Isn't it a luxury, precisely? That's why, intending to be in Venice some
weeks, possibly all summer, and having some literary work, some
reading and writing to do, so that I must be quiet, and yet if possible a
great deal in the open air-- that's why I have felt that a garden is really
indispensable. I appeal to your own experience," I went on, smiling.

"Now can't I look at yours?"
"I don't know, I don't understand," the poor woman murmured, planted
there and letting her embarrassed eyes wander all over my strangeness.
"I mean only from one of those windows--such grand ones as you have
here--if you will let me open the shutters." And I walked toward the
back of the house. When I had advanced halfway I stopped and waited,
as if I took it for granted she would accompany me. I had been of
necessity very abrupt, but I strove at the same time to give her the
impression of extreme courtesy. "I have been looking at furnished
rooms all over the place, and it seems impossible to find any with a
garden attached. Naturally in a place like Venice gardens are rare. It's
absurd if you like, for a man, but I can't live without flowers."
"There are none to speak of down there." She came nearer to me, as if,
though she mistrusted me, I had drawn her by an invisible thread. I
went on again, and she continued as she followed me: "We have a few,
but they are very common. It costs too much to cultivate them; one has
to have a man."
"Why shouldn't I be the man?" I asked. "I'll work without wages; or
rather I'll put in a gardener. You shall have the sweetest flowers in
Venice."
She protested at this, with a queer little sigh which might also have
been a gush of rapture at the picture I presented. Then she observed,
"We don't know you--we don't know you."
"You know me as much as I know you: that is much more, because you
know my name. And if you are English I am almost a countryman."
"We are not English," said my companion, watching me helplessly
while I threw open the shutters of one of the divisions of the wide high
window.
"You speak the language so beautifully: might I ask what you are?"
Seen from above the garden was certainly shabby; but I perceived at a

glance that it had great capabilities. She made no rejoinder, she was so
lost in staring at me, and I exclaimed, "You don't mean to say you are
also by chance American?"
"I don't know; we used to be."
"Used to be? Surely you haven't changed?"
"It's so many years ago--we are nothing."
"So many years that you