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hard and unrequited work that she all her life
found in prayer. It was her fidelity and her utter surrender of herself to
this first and last of all her religious duties, till it became more a delight,
and, indeed, more an indulgence, than a duty. With Teresa it was prayer
first, and prayer last, and prayer always. With Teresa literally all things
were sanctified, and sweetened, and made fruitful by prayer. In Teresa's
writings prayer holds much the same place that it holds in the best men
and women of Holy Scripture. If I were to say that about some of the
ladies of the Scottish Covenant, you would easily believe me. But you
must believe me when I tell you that about a Spanish lady, second to
none of them in holiness of life, even if her holy life is not all cast in
our mould. All who have read the autobiographic Apologia will
remember the fine passage in which its author tells us that ever since
his conversion there have been two, and only two, absolutely
self-luminous beings in the whole universe of being to him,--God and

his own soul. Now, I do not remember that Newman even once speaks
about Teresa in any of his books, but I always think of him and her
together in this great respect. GOD is to them both, and to them both
He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek Him. And it is just here, at
the very commencement and centre of divine things, that we all make
such shipwreck and come so short. The sense of the reality of divine
and unseen things in Teresa's life of prayer is simply miraculous in a
woman still living among things seen and temporal. Her faith is truly
the substance of things hoped for, and the evidence of things not seen.
Our Lord was as real, as present, as near, as visible, and as affable to
this extraordinary saint as ever He was to Martha, or Mary, or Mary
Magdalene, or the woman of Samaria, or the mother of Zebedee's
children. She prepared Him where to lay His head; she sat at His feet
and heard His word. She chose the better part, and He acknowledged to
herself and to others that she had done so. She washed His feet with her
tears, and wiped them with the hair of her head. She had been forgiven
much, and she loved much. He said to her, Mary, and she answered
Him, Rabboni. And He gave her messages to deliver to His disciples,
who had not waited for Him as she had waited. Till she was able to say
to them all that she had seen the Lord, and that He had spoken such and
such things within her. And hence arises what I may call the quite
extraordinary purity and spirituality of her life of prayer. 'Defecate' is
Goodwin's favourite and constant word for the purest, the most rapt, the
most adoring, and the most spiritual prayer. 'I have known men'--it
must have been himself--'who came to God for nothing else but just to
come to Him, they so loved Him. They scorned to soil Him and
themselves with any other errand than just purely to be alone with Him
in His presence. Friendship is best kept up, even among men, by
frequent visits; and the more free and defecate those frequent visits are,
and the less occasioned by business, or necessity, or custom they are,
the more friendly and welcome they are.' Now, I have sometimes
wondered what took Teresa so often, and kept her so long, alone with
God. Till I remembered Goodwin's classical passages about defecated
prayer, and understood something of what is involved and what is to be
experienced in pure and immediate communion with God. And, then,
from all that it surely follows, that no one is fit for one moment to have
an adverse or a hostile mind, or to pass an adverse or a hostile

judgment, on the divine manifestations that came to Teresa in her
unparalleled life of prayer; no one who is not a man of like prayer
himself; no, nor even then. I know all the explanations that have been
put forward for Teresa's 'locutions' and revelations; but after anxiously
weighing them all, the simplest explanation is also the most scientific,
as it is the most scriptural. If our ascending Lord actually said what He
is reported to have said about the way that He and His Father will
always reward all love to Him, and the keeping of all His
commandments; then, if there is anything true about Teresa at all, it is
this, that from the day of her full conversion she lived with all her
might that very life which