and she had to smile at them when
they smiled at her. But, she reasoned, of course all the time he really
knew that he could trust her entirely. There was no harm in Fay's nature,
no venom, there were no dark places, no strong passions, with their
awful possibilities for good and evil. She had already given much pain
in her short life, but inadvertently. She was of that large class of whom
it may truly be said when evil comes, that they are more sinned against
than sinning. They always somehow gravitate into the places where
people are sinned against, just as some people never attend a
cricket-match without receiving a ball on their persons.
And now trouble had come upon her. She had at last fallen in love. I
would not venture to assert that she had fallen in very deep, that the
"breakers of the boundless deep" had engulfed her. Some of us make
shipwreck in a teacup tempest, and when our serenity is restored--there
is nothing calmer than a teacup after its storm--our experience serves,
after a decent interval, as an agreeable fringe to our confidential
conversation.
Anyhow, Fay had fallen in love. I feel bound to add that for some time
before that event happened life had become intolerably dull. The advent
to Rome of her distant connection, Michael Carstairs, had been at this
juncture a source of delight to her. She had, before her marriage, flirted
with him a very little--not as much as she could have wished; but Lady
Bellairs, who was fond of him, had promptly intervened, and the young
man had disappeared into his examinations. That was four years ago.
In reality Fay had half-forgotten him; but when she saw him suddenly,
pale, handsome, distinguished, across a ballroom in Rome, and, after a
moment's uncertainty, realised who he was, she felt the same
pleasurable surprise, soft as the fall of dew, which pervades the
feminine heart when, in looking into an unused drawer, it inadvertently
haps upon a length of new ribbon, bought, carefully put away, and
forgotten.
Fay went gently up to Michael, conscious of her beauty and her
wonderful jewels, and held out her hand with a little deprecating smile.
"And so we meet again at last," she said.
He turned red and white.
"At last," he said with difficulty.
She looked more closely at him. The dreamy, poetic face had changed
during those four years. She became dimly aware that he had not only
grown from a youth into a man, but that some other transformation had
been painfully wrought in him.
Instinctively her beaming face became grave to match his. She was
slow to see what others were feeling, but quick to reflect their mood.
She sighed gently, vaguely stirred, in spite of herself, by
something--she knew not what--in her companion's face.
"It is four years since I saw you," she said.
And from her lowered voice it seemed as if her life were rooted in
memory alone.
"Four years," said Michael, who, promising young diplomat as he was,
appeared only able to repeat parrot-wise her last words after her.
A pause.
"Do you know my husband?"
"I do not."
"May I introduce him to you?"
Fay made a little sign, and the duke approached, superb, decorated,
dignified, with the polished pallor as if the skin were a little too tight,
which is the Charybdis of many who have avoided the Scylla of
wrinkles.
The elder Italian and the grave, fair, young Englishman bowed to each
other, were made known to each other.
That night as the duke drove home with his wife he said to her in his
admirable English:
"Your young cousin is an enthusiast, a dreamer, a sensitive, what your
Tennyson calls a Sir Galahad. In Italy we make of such men a priest, a
cardinal. He is not an homme d'affaires. It was not well to put him into
diplomacy. One may make a religion of art. One may even for a time
make a religion of a woman. But of the English diplomacy one does not
make a religion."
Fay lay awake that night. From a disused pigeon-hole in her mind she
drew out and unfolded to its short length that attractive remnant, that
half-forgotten episode of her teens. She remembered everything--I
mean everything she wished to remember. Michael's face had recalled
it all, those exquisite days which he had taken so much more seriously
than she had, the sudden ruthless intervention of Lady Bellairs, the end
of the daydream. Fay, whose attention had been adroitly diverted to
other channels, had never wondered how he took their separation at the
time. Now that she saw him again she was aware that he had taken
it--to heart.
During that sleepless night Fay persuaded herself that
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