Poems | Page 8

man find hope on yonder coast??Hope, which, on earth, shines never clear,?And oft in clouds is wholly lost.
"Will he hope's source of light behold,?Fruition's spring, where doubts expire,?And drink, in waves of living gold,?Contentment, full, for long desire?
"Will he find bliss, which here he dreamed??Rest, which was weariness on earth??Knowledge, which, if o'er life it beamed,?Served but to prove it void of worth?
"Will he find love without lust's leaven,?Love fearless, tearless, perfect, pure,?To all with equal bounty given;?In all, unfeigned, unfailing, sure?
"Will he, from penal sufferings free,?Released from shroud and wormy clod,?All calm and glorious, rise and see?Creation's Sire--Existence' God?
"Then, glancing back on Time's brief woes,?Will he behold them, fading, fly;?Swept from Eternity's repose,?Like sullying cloud from pure blue sky?
"If so, endure, my weary frame;?And when thy anguish strikes too deep,?And when all troubled burns life's flame,?Think of the quiet, final sleep;
"Think of the glorious waking-hour,?Which will not dawn on grief and tears,?But on a ransomed spirit's power,?Certain, and free from mortal fears.
"Seek now thy couch, and lie till morn,?Then from thy chamber, calm, descend,?With mind nor tossed, nor anguish-torn,?But tranquil, fixed, to wait the end.
"And when thy opening eyes shall see?Mementos, on the chamber wall,?Of one who has forgotten thee,?Shed not the tear of acrid gall.
"The tear which, welling from the heart,?Burns where its drop corrosive falls,?And makes each nerve, in torture, start,?At feelings it too well recalls:
"When the sweet hope of being loved?Threw Eden sunshine on life's way:?When every sense and feeling proved?Expectancy of brightest day.
"When the hand trembled to receive?A thrilling clasp, which seemed so near,?And the heart ventured to believe?Another heart esteemed it dear.
"When words, half love, all tenderness,?Were hourly heard, as hourly spoken,?When the long, sunny days of bliss?Only by moonlight nights were broken.
"Till, drop by drop, the cup of joy?Filled full, with purple light was glowing,?And Faith, which watched it, sparkling high?Still never dreamt the overflowing.
"It fell not with a sudden crashing,?It poured not out like open sluice;?No, sparkling still, and redly flashing,?Drained, drop by drop, the generous juice.
"I saw it sink, and strove to taste it,?My eager lips approached the brim;?The movement only seemed to waste it;?It sank to dregs, all harsh and dim.
"These I have drunk, and they for ever?Have poisoned life and love for me;?A draught from Sodom's lake could never?More fiery, salt, and bitter, be.
"Oh! Love was all a thin illusion?Joy, but the desert's flying stream;?And glancing back on long delusion,?My memory grasps a hollow dream.
"Yet whence that wondrous change of feeling,?I never knew, and cannot learn;?Nor why my lover's eye, congealing,?Grew cold and clouded, proud and stern.
"Nor wherefore, friendship's forms forgetting,?He careless left, and cool withdrew;?Nor spoke of grief, nor fond regretting,?Nor ev'n one glance of comfort threw.
"And neither word nor token sending,?Of kindness, since the parting day,?His course, for distant regions bending,?Went, self-contained and calm, away.
"Oh, bitter, blighting, keen sensation,?Which will not weaken, cannot die,?Hasten thy work of desolation,?And let my tortured spirit fly!
"Vain as the passing gale, my crying;?Though lightning-struck, I must live on;?I know, at heart, there is no dying?Of love, and ruined hope, alone.
"Still strong and young, and warm with vigour,?Though scathed, I long shall greenly grow;?And many a storm of wildest rigour?Shall yet break o'er my shivered bough.
"Rebellious now to blank inertion,?My unused strength demands a task;?Travel, and toil, and full exertion,?Are the last, only boon I ask.
"Whence, then, this vain and barren dreaming?Of death, and dubious life to come??I see a nearer beacon gleaming?Over dejection's sea of gloom.
"The very wildness of my sorrow?Tells me I yet have innate force;?My track of life has been too narrow,?Effort shall trace a broader course.
"The world is not in yonder tower,?Earth is not prisoned in that room,?'Mid whose dark panels, hour by hour,?I've sat, the slave and prey of gloom.
"One feeling--turned to utter anguish,?Is not my being's only aim;?When, lorn and loveless, life will languish,?But courage can revive the flame.
"He, when he left me, went a roving?To sunny climes, beyond the sea;?And I, the weight of woe removing,?Am free and fetterless as he.
"New scenes, new language, skies less clouded,?May once more wake the wish to live;?Strange, foreign towns, astir, and crowded,?New pictures to the mind may give.
"New forms and faces, passing ever,?May hide the one I still retain,?Defined, and fixed, and fading never,?Stamped deep on vision, heart, and brain.
"And we might meet--time may have changed him;?Chance may reveal the mystery,?The secret influence which estranged him;?Love may restore him yet to me.
"False thought--false hope--in scorn be banished!?I am not loved--nor loved have been;?Recall not, then, the dreams scarce vanished;?Traitors! mislead me not again!
"To words like yours I bid defiance,?'Tis such my mental wreck have made;?Of God alone, and self-reliance,?I ask for solace--hope for aid.
"Morn comes--and ere meridian glory?O'er these, my natal woods, shall smile,?Both lonely wood and mansion hoary?I'll leave behind, full many a mile."
GILBERT.
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