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Said I then, sunk in tone,?"I am merest mimicker and counterfeit! -
Though thinking, I AM I?AND WHAT I DO I DO MYSELF ALONE."?--The cynic twist of the page thereat unknit?Back to its normal figure, having wrought its purport wry,
The Mage's mirror left the window-square,?And the stained moon and drift retook their places there.
1916.
THIS HEART?A WOMAN'S DREAM
At midnight, in the room where he lay dead?Whom in his life I had never clearly read,?I thought if I could peer into that citadel
His heart, I should at last know full and well
What hereto had been known to him alone,?Despite our long sit-out of years foreflown,?"And if," I said, "I do this for his memory's sake,
It would not wound him, even if he could wake."
So I bent over him. He seemed to smile?With a calm confidence the whole long while?That I, withdrawing his heart, held it and, bit by bit,
Perused the unguessed things found written on it.
It was inscribed like a terrestrial sphere?With quaint vermiculations close and clear -?His graving. Had I known, would I have risked the stroke
Its reading brought, and my own heart nigh broke!
Yes, there at last, eyes opened, did I see?His whole sincere symmetric history;?There were his truth, his simple singlemindedness,
Strained, maybe, by time's storms, but there no less.
There were the daily deeds from sun to sun?In blindness, but good faith, that he had done;?There were regrets, at instances wherein he swerved
(As he conceived) from cherishings I had deserved.
There were old hours all figured down as bliss -?Those spent with me--(how little had I thought this!)?There those when, at my absence, whether he slept or waked,
(Though I knew not 'twas so!) his spirit ached.
There that when we were severed, how day dulled?Till time joined us anew, was chronicled:?And arguments and battlings in defence of me
That heart recorded clearly and ruddily.
I put it back, and left him as he lay?While pierced the morning pink and then the gray?Into each dreary room and corridor around,
Where I shall wait, but his step will not sound.
WHERE THEY LIVED
Dishevelled leaves creep down?Upon that bank to-day,?Some green, some yellow, and some pale brown;
The wet bents bob and sway;?The once warm slippery turf is sodden
Where we laughingly sat or lay.
The summerhouse is gone,?Leaving a weedy space;?The bushes that veiled it once have grown
Gaunt trees that interlace,?Through whose lank limbs I see too clearly
The nakedness of the place.
And where were hills of blue,?Blind drifts of vapour blow,?And the names of former dwellers few,
If any, people know,?And instead of a voice that called, "Come in, Dears,"
Time calls, "Pass below!"
THE OCCULTATION
When the cloud shut down on the morning shine,
And darkened the sun,?I said, "So ended that joy of mine
Years back begun."
But day continued its lustrous roll
In upper air;?And did my late irradiate soul
Live on somewhere?
LIFE LAUGHS ONWARD
Rambling I looked for an old abode?Where, years back, one had lived I knew;?Its site a dwelling duly showed,
But it was new.
I went where, not so long ago,?The sod had riven two breasts asunder;?Daisies throve gaily there, as though
No grave were under.
I walked along a terrace where?Loud children gambolled in the sun;?The figure that had once sat there
Was missed by none.
Life laughed and moved on unsubdued,?I saw that Old succumbed to Young:?'Twas well. My too regretful mood
Died on my tongue.
THE PEACE-OFFERING
It was but a little thing,?Yet I knew it meant to me?Ease from what had given a sting?To the very birdsinging
Latterly.
But I would not welcome it;?And for all I then declined?O the regrettings infinite?When the night-processions flit
Through the mind!
"SOMETHING TAPPED"
Something tapped on the pane of my room
When there was never a trace?Of wind or rain, and I saw in the gloom
My weary Beloved's face.
"O I am tired of waiting," she said,
"Night, morn, noon, afternoon;?So cold it is in my lonely bed,
And I thought you would join me soon!"
I rose and neared the window-glass,
But vanished thence had she:?Only a pallid moth, alas,
Tapped at the pane for me.
August 1913.
THE WOUND
I climbed to the crest,
And, fog-festooned,?The sun lay west
Like a crimson wound:
Like that wound of mine
Of which none knew,?For I'd given no sign
That it pierced me through.
A MERRYMAKING IN QUESTION
"I will get a new string for my fiddle,
And call to the neighbours to come,?And partners shall dance down the middle
Until the old pewter-wares hum:?And we'll sip the mead, cyder, and rum!"
From the night came the oddest of answers:
A hollow wind, like a bassoon,?And headstones all ranged up as dancers,
And cypresses droning a croon,?And gurgoyles that mouthed to the tune.
"I SAID AND SANG HER EXCELLENCE"?(Fickle Lover's Song)
I said and sang her excellence:
They called it laud undue.
(Have your way, my heart, O!)?Yet what was homage far above?The plain deserts of my olden Love
Proved verity of my new.
"She moves a sylph in picture-land,
Where nothing frosts the air:"
(Have your way, my heart, O!)?"To all winged pipers overhead?She is known by shape and song," I said,
Conscious of licence there.
I sang of