Memoirs of Arthur Hamilton, B. A. Of Trinity College, Cambridge | Page 5

had been disposed to talk,
but he was not talkative, and held his tongue.
There had been some discussion about careers and their relative merits. One rather
cynical man had broken in upon the ambitious projects that were being advanced with,
"Well, we must remember that we are after all only average men."
"Yes," said Arthur, slowly, from the depths of his chair, "no doubt; only not quite so
average."
The gentleman addressed, who was a senior man, stared for a moment at the freshman
who had ventured to correct him, to whom he had not even been introduced; but Arthur
was staring meditatively at the smoke rising from his pipe, and did not seem inclined to
move or be moved, so he concluded not to continue the discussion.
The only other thing I heard him say that night was as follows. An ardent enthusiast on
the subject of missions was present, who, speaking of an Indian mission lately started and
apparently wholly ineffective, said, "But we must expect discouragement at first. The
Church has always met with that."
"Yes," said Arthur; "but we must also remember, what people are very apt to forget, that
ill success is not an absolute proof that God is on our side."
These two remarks, slight as they were, struck me; and, indeed, I have never quite
forgotten that indefinable first impression of the man. There was a feeling about him of
holding great things in reserve, an utter absence of self-consciousness, a sensation that he
did not value the opinions of other people, that he did not regulate his conduct by them,
which is very refreshing in these social days, when everybody's doings and sayings are
ventilated and discussed so freely. He had none of the ordinary ambitions; he did not
want a reputation, I thought, on ordinary grounds; he struck me as liking to observe and
consider, not to do or say.
I am fond of guessing at character and forming impressions; and I very soon found out

that these were not mistaken. My way that night lay with him as far as the gate of his
college. We struck up a kind of acquaintanceship, though I felt conscious that he did not
in the least care about doing so, that he probably would not give me another thought. It
seems strange, reflecting on that evening, that I should now come to be his biographer.
However, I was interested in the type of character he displayed, and did not let the
acquaintance drop. I invited him to my rooms. He would not come of his own accord at
first, but by-and-by he got habituated to me, and not unfrequently strolled in.
He never let any one into the secret of his motives; he never confessed to any plans for
the future, or to taking any interest in one line of life more than another. He was well off
and did not spend much, except on his books, which were splendid. His rooms were
untidy to the last degree, but liberally supplied with the most varied contrivances for
obtaining a comfortable posture. Deep chairs and sofas, with devices for books and light,
and for writing in any position. "When my mind is at work," he said to me once, "I don't
like to be reminded of my body at all. I want to forget that I have one; and so I always say
my prayers lying down."
He dressed badly, or rather carelessly, for he never gave the subject a moment's thought.
If his friends told him that a suit was shabby, he appeared in a day or two in a new one,
till that was similarly noticed; then it was discarded altogether. He always wore one suit
till he had worn it out, never varying it. But he consulted fashion to a certain extent. "My
object," he said, "is to escape notice, to look like every one else. I think of all despicable
people, the people who try to attract attention by a marked style of dress, are perhaps the
lowest."
His life at Cambridge was very monotonous, for he enjoyed monotony; he used to say
that he liked to reflect on getting up in the morning, that his day was going to be filled by
ordinary familiar things. He got up rather late, read his subjects for an hour or two,
strolled about to see one or two friends, lunched with them or at home, strolled in the
afternoon, often dropping in to King's for the anthem, went back to his rooms for tea, the
one time at which he liked to see his friends, read or talked till hall, and finally settled
down to his books again at ten, reading till one or two in the morning.
He read very desultorily