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lets in a great
tide of that experience, and makes, as it were with a single step, a great
experience of one's own, and with great consequent increase to one's
sense of colour, variety, and relief, in the spectacle of men and things.
The mere sense that one belongs to a system--an imperial system or
organisation--has, in itself, the expanding power of a great experience;
as some have felt who have been admitted from narrower sects into the
communion of the catholic church; or as the old Roman citizen felt. It
is, we might fancy, what the coming into possession of a very widely
spoken language might be, with a great literature, which is also [27] the
speech of the people we have to live among.
A wonderful order, actually in possession of human life!--grown
inextricably through and through it; penetrating into its laws, its very
language, its mere habits of decorum, in a thousand half- conscious
ways; yet still felt to be, in part, an unfulfilled ideal; and, as such,
awakening hope, and an aim, identical with the one only consistent
aspiration of mankind! In the apprehension of that, just then, Marius
seemed to have joined company once more with his own old self; to
have overtaken on the road the pilgrim who had come to Rome, with
absolute sincerity, on the search for perfection. It defined not so much a

change of practice, as of sympathy--a new departure, an expansion, of
sympathy. It involved, certainly, some curtailment of his liberty, in
concession to the actual manner, the distinctions, the enactments of that
great crowd of admirable spirits, who have elected so, and not
otherwise, in their conduct of life, and are not here to give one, so to
term it, an "indulgence." But then, under the supposition of their
disapproval, no roses would ever seem worth plucking again. The
authority they exercised was like that of classic taste--an influence so
subtle, yet so real, as defining the loyalty of the scholar; or of some
beautiful and venerable ritual, in which every observance is become
spontaneous and almost mechanical, yet is found, [28] the more
carefully one considers it, to have a reasonable significance and a
natural history.
And Marius saw that he would be but an inconsistent Cyrenaic,
mistaken in his estimate of values, of loss and gain, and untrue to the
well-considered economy of life which he had brought with him to
Rome--that some drops of the great cup would fall to the ground--if he
did not make that concession, if he did but remain just there.
NOTES
21. +Transliteration: monochronos hêdonê. Pater's definition "the
pleasure of the ideal present, of the mystic now." The definition is
fitting; the unusual adjective monochronos means, literally, "single or
unitary time."
CHAPTER XVII
: BEATA URBS
"Many prophets and kings have desired to see the things which ye see."
[29] THE enemy on the Danube was, indeed, but the vanguard of the
mighty invading hosts of the fifth century. Illusively repressed just now,
those confused movements along the northern boundary of the Empire
were destined to unite triumphantly at last, in the barbarism, which,
powerless to destroy the Christian church, was yet to suppress for a

time the achieved culture of the pagan world. The kingdom of Christ
was to grow up in a somewhat false alienation from the light and
beauty of the kingdom of nature, of the natural man, with a partly
mistaken tradition concerning it, and an incapacity, as it might almost
seem at times, for eventual reconciliation thereto. Meantime Italy had
armed itself once more, in haste, and the imperial brothers set forth for
the Alps.
Whatever misgiving the Roman people may [30] have felt as to the
leadership of the younger was unexpectedly set at rest; though with
some temporary regret for the loss of what had been, after all, a popular
figure on the world's stage. Travelling fraternally in the same litter with
Aurelius, Lucius Verus was struck with sudden and mysterious disease,
and died as he hastened back to Rome. His death awoke a swarm of
sinister rumours, to settle on Lucilla, jealous, it was said, of Fabia her
sister, perhaps of Faustina--on Faustina herself, who had accompanied
the imperial progress, and was anxious now to hide a crime of her
own--even on the elder brother, who, beforehand with the treasonable
designs of his colleague, should have helped him at supper to a
favourite morsel, cut with a knife poisoned ingeniously on one side
only. Aurelius, certainly, with sincere distress, his long irritations, so
dutifully concealed or repressed, turning now into a single feeling of
regret for the human creature, carried the remains back to Rome, and
demanded of the Senate a public funeral, with a decree for the
apotheôsis, or canonisation, of the dead.