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her voice sound shrill and piercing--not loud, but
preternaturally distinct; "here and nowhere else. How good you
are--how noble and how generous! Love you! Why, there are women a
hundred times my superiors in beauty and in goodness who might love
you dearly; but you ask too much of me! Remember what my life has
been; only remember that! From my very babyhood I have never seen
anything but poverty. My father was a gentleman: clever, accomplished,
handsome--but poor--and what a pitiful wretch poverty made of him!
My mother--But do not let me speak of her. Poverty--poverty, trials,
vexations, humiliations, deprivations. You cannot tell; you, who are
among those for whom life is so smooth and easy, you can never guess
what is endured by such as we. Do not ask too much of me, then. I
cannot be disinterested; I cannot be blind to the advantages of such an
alliance. I cannot, I cannot!"
Beyond her agitation and her passionate vehemence, there is an
undefined something in her manner which fills the baronet with a
vague alarm. She is still on the ground at his feet, crouching rather than
kneeling, her thin white dress clinging about her, her pale hair
streaming over her shoulders, her great blue eyes glittering in the dusk,
and her hands clutching at the black ribbon about her throat, as if it had
been strangling her. "Don't ask too much of me," she kept repeating; "I
have been selfish from my babyhood."
"Lucy--Lucy, speak plainly. Do you dislike me?"
"Dislike you? No--no!"
"But is there any one else whom you love?"
She laughed aloud at his question. "I do not love any one in the world,"
she answered.

He was glad of her reply; and yet that and the strange laugh jarred upon
his feelings. He was silent for some moments, and then said, with a
kind of effort:
"Well, Lucy, I will not ask too much of you. I dare say I am a romantic
old fool; but if you do not dislike me, and if you do not love any one
else, I see no reason why we should not make a very happy couple. Is it
a bargain, Lucy?"
"Yes."
The baronet lifted her in his arms and kissed her once upon the
forehead, then quietly bidding her good-night, he walked straight out of
the house.
He walked straight out of the house, this foolish old man, because there
was some strong emotion at work in his breast--neither joy nor triumph,
but something almost akin to disappointment--some stifled and
unsatisfied longing which lay heavy and dull at his heart, as if he had
carried a corpse in his bosom. He carried the corpse of that hope which
had died at the sound of Lucy's words. All the doubts and fears and
timid aspirations were ended now. He must be contented, like other
men of his age, to be married for his fortune and his position.
Lucy Graham went slowly up the stairs to her little room at the top of
the house. She placed her dim candle on the chest of drawers, and
seated herself on the edge of the white bed, still and white as the
draperies hanging around her.
"No more dependence, no more drudgery, no more humiliations," she
said; "every trace of the old life melted away--every clew to identity
buried and forgotten--except these, except these."
She had never taken her left hand from the black ribbon at her throat.
She drew it from her bosom, as she spoke, and looked at the object
attached to it.
It was neither a locket, a miniature, nor a cross; it was a ring wrapped

in an oblong piece of paper--the paper partly written, partly printed,
yellow with age, and crumpled with much folding.
CHAPTER II.
ON BOARD THE ARGUS.
He threw the end of his cigar into the water, and leaning his elbows
upon the bulwarks, stared meditatively at the waves.
"How wearisome they are," he said; "blue and green, and opal; opal,
and blue, and green; all very well in their way, of course, but three
months of them are rather too much, especially--"
He did not attempt to finish his sentence; his thoughts seemed to
wander in the very midst of it, and carry him a thousand miles or so
away.
"Poor little girl, how pleased she'll be!" he muttered, opening his
cigar-case, lazily surveying its contents; "how pleased and how
surprised? Poor little girl. After three years and a half, too; she will be
surprised."
He was a young man of about five-and-twenty, with dark face bronzed
by exposure to the sun; he had handsome brown eyes, with a lazy smile
in them that sparkled through the black lashes, and a bushy beard and
mustache that covered the whole lower