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and all I've
got to say is:--Be careful that it does not bring you into trouble. Still,
while you don't love anybody else--and the man you do love had better
keep out of my way, curse him!--there is hope for me. Look here, Joan:
I don't want to press you--take time to think it over. I'm in no hurry. I
could wait five years if I were sure of getting you at last. I dare say I
frightened you by my roughness: I was a fool; I should have
remembered that it is all new to you, though it is old enough for me.
Listen, Joan: tell me that I may wait awhile and come again--though,
whether you tell me or not, I shall wait and I shall come, while there is
breath in my body and I can find you out."
"What's the use?" said Joan. "I don't love you, and love does not grow
with waiting; and if I do not love you, how can I marry you? We had
better make an end of the business once and for all. I am very sorry, but
it is not been my fault."
"What's the use? Why, all in the world! In time you will come to think
differently; in time you will learn that a Christian man's honest love and
all that goes with it isn't a thing to be chucked away like dirty water; in
time, perhaps, your aunt and uncle will teach you reason about it,

though you do despise me since you went away for your fine
schooling----"
"Oh, don't tell them!" broke in Joan imploringly.
"Why, I have told them. I spoke to your aunt this very day about it, and
she wished me God-speed with all her heart, and I am sure she will be
vexed enough when she hears the truth."
As Joan heard these words her face betrayed the perturbation of her
mind. Her aunt's fury when she understood that she, Joan, had rejected
Samuel Rock would indeed be hard to bear. Samuel, watching, read her
thoughts, and, growing cunning in his despair, was not slow to turn
them to his advantage.
"Listen, Joan," he said: "say that you will take time to think it over, and
I will make matters easy for you with Mrs. Gillingwater. I know how to
manage her, and I promise that not a rough word shall be said to you.
Joan, Joan, it is not much to ask. Tell me that I may come again for my
answer in six months. That can't hurt you, and it will be hope to me."
She hesitated. A warning sense told her that it would be better to have
done with this man at once; but then, if she obeyed it, the one thing
which she truly feared--her aunt's fury--would fall upon her and crush
her. If she gave way, on the other hand, she knew well enough that
Samuel would shelter her from this storm for his own sake if not for
hers. What could it matter, she argued weakly, if she did postpone her
final decision for six months? Perhaps before that time she might be
able to escape from Bradmouth and Samuel Rock, and thus avoid the
necessity of giving any answer.
"If I do as you wish, will you promise not to trouble me, or interfere
with me, or to speak to me about this kind of thing in the meanwhile?"
she asked.
"Yes; I swear that I will not."
"Very good: have your own way about it, Mr. Rock; but understand

that I do not mean to encourage you by this, and I don't think it likely
that my answer six months hence will be any different from what it is
to-day."
"I understand, Joan."
"Very well, then: good-bye." And she held out her hand.
He took it, and, overmastered by a sudden impulse, pressed it to his lips
and kissed it twice or thrice.
"Leave go," she said, wrenching herself free. "Is that the way you keep
your promise?"
"I beg your pardon," he answered humbly. "I could not help it--Heaven
knows that I could not help it. I will not break my word again." And he
turned and left her, walking through the grass of the graves with a slow
and somewhat feline step.

At last he was gone, and Joan sat down once more, with a gasp of relief.
Her first feelings were those of exultation at being rid of Mr. Rock; but
they did not endure. Would he keep his promise, she wondered, and
hide from her aunt the fact that he had proposed and been rejected? If
he did not, one thing was clear to her--that she would be forced to fly
from Bradmouth, since by many a hint