Jean-Christophe, vol 1 | Page 3

III. ADA
REVOLT
I. SHIFTING SANDS II. ENGULFED III. DELIVERANCE

THE DAWN
Dianzi, nell'alba che precede al giorno, Quando l'anima tua dentro
dormìa.... Purgatorio, ix.

I
Come, quando i vapori umidi e spessi A diradar cominciansi, la spera
Del sol debilemente entra per essi.... Purgatorio, xvii.
From behind the house rises the murmuring of the river. All day long
the rain has been beating against the window-panes; a stream of water
trickles down the window at the corner where it is broken. The

yellowish light of the day dies down. The room is dim and dull.
The new-born child stirs in his cradle. Although the old man left his
sabots at the door when he entered, his footsteps make the floor creak.
The child begins to whine. The mother leans out of her bed to comfort
it; and the grandfather gropes to light the lamp, so that the child shall
not be frightened by the night when he awakes. The flame of the lamp
lights up old Jean Michel's red face, with its rough white beard and
morose expression and quick eyes. He goes near the cradle. His cloak
smells wet, and as he walks he drags his large blue list slippers, Louisa
signs to him not to go too near. She is fair, almost white; her features
are drawn; her gentle, stupid face is marked with red in patches; her
lips are pale and' swollen, and they are parted in a timid smile; her eyes
devour the child--and her eyes are blue and vague; the pupils are small,
but there is an infinite tenderness in them.
The child wakes and cries, and his eyes are troubled. Oh! how terrible!
The darkness, the sudden flash of the lamp, the hallucinations of a mind
as yet hardly detached from chaos, the stifling, roaring night in which it
is enveloped, the illimitable gloom from which, like blinding shafts of
light, there emerge acute sensations, sorrows, phantoms--those
enormous faces leaning over him, those eyes that pierce through him,
penetrating, are beyond his comprehension!... He has not the strength to
cry out; terror holds him motionless, with eyes and mouth wide open
and he rattles in his throat. His large head, that seems to have swollen
up, is wrinkled with the grotesque and lamentable grimaces that he
makes; the skin of his face and hands is brown and purple, and spotted
with yellow....
"Dear God!" said the old man with conviction: "How ugly he is!"
He put the lamp down on the table.
Louisa pouted like a scolded child. Jean Michel looked at her out of the
corner of his eye and laughed.
"You don't want me to say that he is beautiful? You would not believe
it. Come, it is not your fault. They are all like that."

The child came out of the stupor and immobility into which he had
been thrown by the light of the lamp and the eyes of the old man. He
began to cry. Perhaps he instinctively felt in his mother's eyes a caress
which made it possible for him to complain. She held out her arms for
him and said:
"Give him to me."
The old man began, as usual, to air his theories:
"You ought not to give way to children when they cry. You must just
let them cry."
But he came and took the child and grumbled:
"I never saw one quite so ugly."
Louisa took the child feverishly and pressed it to her bosom. She
looked at it with a bashful and delighted smile.
"Oh, my poor child!" she said shamefacedly. "How ugly you are--how
ugly! and how I love you!"
Jean Michel went back to the fireside. He began to poke the fire in
protest, but a smile gave the lie to the moroseness and solemnity of his
expression.
"Good girl!" he said. "Don't worry about it. He has plenty of time to
alter. And even so, what does it matter? Only one thing is asked of him:
that he should grow into an honest man."
The child was comforted by contact with his mother's warm body. He
could be heard sucking her milk and gurgling and snorting. Jean Michel
turned in his chair, and said once more, with some emphasis:
"There's nothing finer than an honest man."
He was silent for a moment, pondering whether it would not be proper
to elaborate this thought; but he found nothing more to say, and after a

silence he said irritably:
"Why isn't your husband here?"
"I think he is at the theater," said Louisa timidly. "There is a rehearsal."
"The theater is closed. I passed it just now. One of his lies."
"No. Don't be always blaming him. I must have misunderstood. He
must have been kept for one of his lessons."
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