Hillsboro People | Page 2

Dorothy Canfield
of the unconscious
two. All the queer grammar and insignificant surface eccentricities of
village character may be ruthlessly reproduced in every variety of
dialect, but no one can guess from that record the abounding flood of
richly human life which pours along the village street.
This tormenting inequality between the thing felt and the impression
conveyed had vexed us unceasingly until one day Simple Martin, the
town fool, who always says our wise things, said one of his wisest. He
was lounging by the watering-trough one sunny day in June, when a
carriage-load of "summer folk" from Windfield over the mountain
stopped to water their horses. They asked him, as they always, always
ask all of us, "For mercy's sake, what do you people do all the time,
away off here, so far from everything."
Simple Martin was not irritated, or perplexed, or rendered helplessly

inarticulate by this question, as the rest of us had always been. He
looked around him at the lovely, sloping lines of Hemlock Mountain, at
the Necronett River singing in the sunlight, at the familiar, friendly
faces of the people in the street, and he answered in astonishment at the
ignorance of his questioners, "Do_? Why, we jes' _live!"
We felt that he had explained us once and for all. We had known that,
of course, but we hadn't before, in our own phrase, "sensed it." We just
live. And sometimes it seems to us that we are the only people in
America engaged in that most wonderful occupation. We know, of
course, that we must be wrong in thinking this, and that there must be
countless other Hillsboros scattered everywhere, rejoicing as we do in
an existence which does not necessarily make us care-free or happy,
which does not in the least absolve us from the necessity of working
hard (for Hillsboro is unbelievably poor in money), but which does
keep us alive in every fiber of our sympathy and thrilling with the
consciousness of the life of others.
A common and picturesque expression for a common experience runs,
"It's so noisy I can't hear myself think." After a visit to New York we
feel that its inhabitants are so deafened by the constant blare of
confusion that they can't feel themselves live. The steady sufferers from
this complaint do not realize their condition. They find it on the whole
less trouble not to feel themselves live, and they are most uneasy when
chance forces them to spend a few days (on shipboard, for instance)
where they are not protected by ceaseless and aimless activity from the
consciousness that they are themselves. They cannot even conceive the
bitter-sweet, vital taste of that consciousness as we villagers have it,
and they cannot understand how arid their existence seems to us
without this unhurried, penetrating realization of their own existence
and of the meaning of their acts. We do not blame city dwellers for not
having it; we ourselves lose it when we venture into their maelstrom.
Like them, we become dwarfed by overwhelming numbers, and
shriveled by the incapacity to "sense" the humanity of the countless
human simulacra about us. But we do not stay where we cannot feel
ourselves live. We hurry back to the shadow of Hemlock Mountain,
feeling that to love life one does not need to be what Is usually called

happy, one needs only to live.
It cannot be, of course, that we are the only community to discover this
patent fact; but we know no more of the others than they of us. All that
we hear from that part of America which is not Hillsboro is the wild
yell of excitement going up from the great cities, where people seem to
be doing everything that was ever done or thought of except just living.
City dwellers make money, make reputations (good and bad), make
museums and subways, make charitable institutions, make with a
hysteric rapidity, like excited spiders, more and yet more complications
in the mazy labyrinths of their lives, but they never make each others'
acquaintances ... and that is all that is worth doing in the world.
We who live in Hillsboro know that they are to be pitied, not blamed,
for this fatal omission. We realize that only in Hillsboro and places like
it can one have "deep, full life and contact with the vitalizing stream of
humanity." We know that in the very nature of humanity the city is a
small and narrow world, the village a great and wide one, and that the
utmost efforts of city dwellers will not avail to break the bars of the
prison where they are shut in, each with his own kind. They may look
out from the windows upon a great and varied throng, as the beggar
munching
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