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always like a sort of dry lamp-wick when she
has left me. Never mind! I have something else now to talk about. I
want you to make yourself useful in a harder path."
"Not another Charity Board, aunt," said Esther rather piteously.
"Worse!" said Mrs. Murray. "A charity girl! Thirty years ago I had a
dear friend who was also a friend of your poor mother's. Her name was
Catherine Cortright. She married a man named Brooke, and they went

west, and they kept going further and further west until at length they
reached Colorado, where she died, leaving one daughter, a child of ten
years old. The father married again and had a new family. Very lately
he has died, leaving the girl with her step-mother and half-sisters. She
is unhappy there; they seem to have brought her up in a strict
Presbyterian kind of way, and she does not like it. Mr. Murray is an
executor under her father's will, and when she comes of age in a few
months, she will have a little independent property. She has asked me
to look after her till then, and is coming on at once to make me a visit."
"You are always doing something for somebody," said Esther. "What
do you expect her to be, and how long will she stay?"
"I don't expect any thing, my dear, and my heart sinks whenever I think
of her. My letters say she is amiable and pretty; but if she is a
rattlesnake, I must take her in, and you must help to amuse her."
"I will do all I can," replied Esther. "Don't be low about it. She can't be
as bad as Mrs. Dyer even if she is a rattlesnake. If she is pretty, and
turns out well, we will make George marry her."
"I wish we might," said her aunt.
Esther went her way and thought no more of the orphan, but Mrs.
Murray carried the weight of all New York on her mind. Not the least
of her anxieties was the condition of her brother-in-law, Esther's father.
He was now a confirmed invalid, grateful for society and amusement,
and almost every day he expected his sister-in-law to take him to drive,
if the weather was tolerable. The tax was severe, but she bore it with
heroism, and his gratitude sustained her. When she came for him the
next morning, she found him reading as usual, and waiting for her. "I
was just wondering," said he, "whether I could read five minutes longer
without a stimulant. Do you know that indiscriminate reading is a
fiendish torture. No convict could stand it. I seldom take up a book in
these days without thinking how much more amusing it would be to jolt
off on a bright day at the head of a funeral procession. Between the two
ways of amusing one's-self, I am principled against books."

"You have a very rough way of expressing your tastes," said Mrs.
Murray with a shiver, as they got into her carriage. "Do you know, I
never could understand the humor of joking about funerals."
"That surprises me," said Mr. Dudley. "A good funeral needs a joke. If
mine is not more amusing than my friends', I would rather not go to it.
The kind of funeral I am invited to has no sort of charm. Indeed, I don't
know that I was ever asked to one that seemed to me to show an elegant
hospitality in the host."
"If you can't amuse me better, William, I will drive you home again,"
said his sister-in-law.
"Not quite yet. I have something more to say on this business of
funerals which is just now not a little on my mind."
"Are you joking now, or serious?" asked Mrs. Murray.
"I cannot myself see any humor in what I have to say," replied Mr.
Dudley; "but I am told that even professional humorists seldom enjoy
jokes at their own expense. The case is this. My doctors, who give me
their word of honor that they are not more ignorant than the average of
their profession, told me long ago that I might die at any moment. I
knew then that I must be quite safe, and thought no more about it. Their
first guess was wrong. Instead of going off suddenly and without notice,
as a colonel of New York volunteers should, I began last summer to go
off by bits, as though I were ashamed to be seen running away. This
time the doctors won't say any thing, which alarms me. I have watched
myself and them for some weeks until I feel pretty confident that I had
better get ready to start. All through life I have been thinking how I
could best get out