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engine driver was becoming
cautious--(he was a Frenchman again)--thought that, perhaps, he had to
get down occasionally and walk ahead a bit to see if it was safe to go
on.
Nobody in the train had the least idea where the Front was, how far off,
or what it was like. For all we knew, our train might be going right up
into the rear of the front line trenches. Somewhere round 6 a.m. I
reached my siding. All the others, except myself and one other, had got
out at previous halts. I got down from the carriage on to the cinder track,
and went along the line to the station. Nobody about except a few
Frenchmen, so I went back to the carriage again, and sat looking out
through the dimmed window at the rain-soaked flat country. The other
fellow with me was doing the same. A sudden, profound depression
came over me. Here was I and this other cove dumped down at this
horrible siding; nothing to eat, and nobody to meet us. How rude and
callous of someone, or something. I looked at my watch; it had stopped,
and on trying to wind it I found it was broken.
I stared out of the window again; gave that up, and stared at the
opposite seat. Suddenly my eye caught something shiny under the seat.
I stooped and picked it up; it was a watch! I have always looked upon
this episode as an omen of some sort; but of what sort I can't quite
make out. Finding a watch means finding "Time"--perhaps it meant I
would find time to write this book; on the other hand it may have meant
that my time had come--who knows?
At about eight o'clock by my new watch I again made an attack on the
station, and at last found the R.T.O., which, being interpreted, means
the Railway Transport Officer. He told me where my battalion was to
be found; but didn't know whether they were in the trenches or out. He
also added that if he were me he wouldn't hurry about going there, as I
could probably get a lift in an A.S.C. wagon later on. I took his advice,
and having left all my tackle by his office, went into the nearest
estaminet to get some breakfast. The owner, a genial but garrulous little
Frenchman, spent quite a lot of time explaining to me how those
hateful people, the Boches, had occupied his house not so long before,

and had punched a hole in his kitchen wall to use a machine-gun
through. After breakfast I went to the station and arranged for my
baggage to be sent on by an A.S.C. wagon, and then started out to walk
to Nieppe, which I learnt was the place where my battalion billeted. As
I plodded along the muddy road in the pouring rain, I became aware of
a sound with which I was afterwards to become horribly familiar.
"Boom!" That was all; but I knew it was the voice of the guns, and in
that moment I realized that here was the war, and that I was in it.
I ploughed along for about four miles down uninteresting mud
canals--known on maps as roads--until, finally, I entered Nieppe.
The battalion, I heard from a passing soldier, was having its last day in
billets prior to going into the trenches again. They were billeted at a
disused brewery at the other end of the town. I went on down the
squalid street and finally found the place.
A crowd of dirty, war-worn looking soldiers were clustered about the
entrance in groups. I went in through the large archway past them into
the brewery yard. Soldiers everywhere, resting, talking and smoking. I
inquired where the officers' quarters were, and was shown to the
brewery head office. Here I found the battalion officers, many of whom
I knew, and went into their improvised messroom, which, in previous
days, had apparently been the Brewery Board room.
I found everything very dark, dingy and depressing. That night the
battalion was going into the trenches again, and last evenings in billets
are not generally very exhilarating. I sat and talked with those I knew,
and presently the Colonel came in, and I heard what the orders were for
the evening. I felt very strange and foreign to it all, as everyone except
myself had had their baptism of trench life, and, consequently, at this
time I did not possess that calm indifference, bred of painful experience,
which is part of the essence of a true trench-dweller.
The evening drew on. We had our last meal in billets--sardines, bread,
butter and cake sort of thing--slung on to the bare table by the soldier
servants, who were more engrossed