Beethoven: the Man and the Artist, as Revealed in his own Words | Page 7

wanderings even in his latest years, and never without his note books. In the scenes of nature he found his marvelous motives and themes; brook, birds and tree sang to him. In a few special cases he has himself recorded the fact.
But when he was excluded more and more from communion with his fellow men because of his increasing deafness, until, finally, he could communicate only by writing with others (hence the conversation-books, which will be cited often in this little volume), he fled for refuge to nature. Out in the woods he again became naively happy; to him the woods were a Holy of Holies, a Home of the Mysteries. Forest and mountain-vale heard his sighs; there he unburdened his heavy-laden heart. When his friends need comfort he recommends a retreat to nature. Nearly every summer he leaves hot and dusty Vienna and seeks a quiet spot in the beautiful neighborhood. To call a retired and reposeful little spot his own is his burning desire.

12. On the Kahlenberg, 1812, end of September:
Almighty One In the woods I am blessed. Happy every one In the woods. Every tree speaks Through Thee.
O God! What glory in the Woodland. On the Heights is Peace,-- Peace to serve Him--
(This poetic exclamation, accompanied by a few notes, is on a page of music paper owned by Joseph Joachim.)
13. "How happy I am to be able to wander among bushes and herbs, under trees and over rocks; no man can love the country as I love it. Woods, trees and rocks send back the echo that man desires."
(To Baroness von Drossdick.)
14. "O God! send your glance into beautiful nature and comfort your moody thoughts touching that which must be."
(To the "Immortal Beloved," July 6, in the morning.)
[Thayer has spoiled the story so long believed, and still spooking in the books of careless writers, that the "Immortal Beloved" was the Countess Giulietta Guicciardi, to whom the C-sharp minor sonata is dedicated. The real person to whom the love-letters were addressed was the Countess Brunswick to whom Beethoven was engaged to be married when he composed the fourth Symphony. H. E. K.)
15. "My miserable hearing does not trouble me here. In the country it seems as if every tree said to me: 'Holy! holy!' Who can give complete expression to the ecstasy of the woods! O, the sweet stillness of the woods!"
(July, 1814; he had gone to Baden after the benefit performance of "Fidelio.")
16. "My fatherland, the beautiful locality in which I saw the light of the world, appears before me vividly and just as beautiful as when I left you; I shall count it the happiest experience of my life when I shall again be able to see you, and greet our Father Rhine."
(Vienna, June 29, to Wegeler, in Bonn.)
[In 1825 Beethoven said to his pupil Ries, "Fare well in the Rhine country which is ever dear to me," and in 1826 wrote to Schott, the publisher in Mayence, about the "Rhine country which I so long to see again."]
17. "Bruhl, at "The Lamb"--how lovely to see my native country again!"
(Diary, 1812-1818.)
18. "A little house here, so small as to yield one's self a little room,--only a few days in this divine Bruehl,--longing or desire, emancipation or fulfillment."
(Written in 1816 in Bruehl near Modling among the sketches for the Scherzo of the pianoforte sonata op. 10.)
[Like many another ejaculatory remark of Beethoven's, it is difficult to understand. See Appendix. H. E. K.]
19. "When you reach the old ruins, think that Beethoven often paused there; if you wander through the mysterious fir forests, think that. Beethoven often poetized, or, as is said, composed there."
(In the fall of 1817, to Mme. Streicher, who was at a cure in Baden.)
20. "Nature is a glorious school for the heart! It is well; I shall be a scholar in this school and bring an eager heart to her instruction. Here I shall learn wisdom, the only wisdom that is free from disgust; here I shall learn to know God and find a foretaste of heaven in His knowledge. Among these occupations my earthly days shall flow peacefully along until I am accepted into that world where I shall no longer be a student, but a knower of wisdom."
(Copied into his diary, in 1818, from Sturm's "Betrachtungen uber die Werke Gottes in der Natur.")
21. "Soon autumn will be here. Then I wish to be like unto a fruitful tree which pours rich stores of fruit into our laps! But in the winter of existence, when I shall be gray and sated with life, I desire for myself the good fortune that my repose be as honorable and beneficent as the repose of nature in the winter time."
(Copied from the same work of Sturm's.)

CONCERNING TEXTS

Not even a Beethoven was spared the tormenting question