Badge of Infamy | Page 2

there was animal
appeal in them.
Feldman hesitated, then reluctantly rolled a smoke. He held the
cigarette while the spaceman took a long, gasping drag on it. He

smoked the remainder himself, letting the harsh tobacco burn against
his lungs and sicken his empty stomach. Then he shrugged and
threaded his way through the narrow aisles toward the attendant.
"Better get a doctor," he said bitterly, when the young punk looked up
at him. "You've got a man dying of space-stomach on 214."
The sneer on the kid's face deepened. "Yeah? We don't pay for doctors
every time some wino wants to throw up. Forget it and get back where
you belong, bo."
"You'll have a corpse on your hands in an hour," Feldman insisted. "I
know space-stomach, damn it."
The kid turned back to his lottery sheet. "Go treat yourself if you wanta
play doctor. Go on, scram--before I toss you out in the snow!"
One of Feldman's white-knuckled hands reached for the attendant.
Then he caught himself. He started to turn back, hesitated, and finally
faced the kid again. "I'm not fooling. And I was a doctor," he stated.
"My name is Daniel Feldman."
The attendant nodded absently, until the words finally penetrated. He
looked up, studied Feldman with surprised curiosity and growing
contempt, and reached for the phone. "Gimme Medical Directory," he
muttered.
Feldman felt the kid's eyes on his back as he stumbled through the
aisles to his cot again. He slumped down, rolling another cigarette in
hands that shook. The sick man was approaching delirium now, and the
moans were mixed with weak whining sounds of fear. Other men had
wakened and were watching, but nobody made a move to help.
The retching and writhing of the sick man had begun to weaken, but it
was still not too late to save him. Hot water and skillful massage could
interrupt the paroxysms. In fifteen minutes, Feldman could have
stopped the attack completely.

He found his feet on the floor and his hands already reaching out.
Savagely he pulled himself back. Sure, he could save the man--and
wind up in the gas chamber! There'd be no mercy for his second
offense against Lobby laws. If the spaceman lived, Feldman might get
off with a flogging--that was standard punishment for a pariah who
stepped out of line. But with his luck, there would be a heart arrest and
another juicy story for the papers.
Idealism! The Medical Lobby made a lot out of the word. But it wasn't
for him. A pariah had no business thinking of others.
As Feldman sat there staring, the spaceman grew quieter. Sometimes,
even at this stage, massage could help. It was harder without liberal
supplies of hot water, but the massage was the really important
treatment. It was the trembling of Feldman's hands that stopped him.
He no longer had the strength or the certainty to make the massage
effective.
He was glaring at his hands in self-disgust when the legal doctor
arrived. The man was old and tired. Probably he had been another
idealist who had wound up defeated, content to leave things up to the
established procedures of the Medical Lobby. He looked it as he bent
over the dying man.
The doctor turned back at last to the attendant. "Too late. The best I can
do is ease his pain. The call should have been made half an hour
earlier."
He had obviously never handled space-stomach before. He
administered a hypo that probably held narconal. Feldman watched, his
guts tightening sympathetically for the shock that would be to the sick
man. But at least it would shorten his sufferings. The final seizure
lasted only a minute or so.
"Hopeless," the doctor said. His eyes were clouded for a moment, and
then he shrugged. "Well, I'll make out a death certificate. Anyone here
know his name?"

His eyes swung about the cots until they came to rest on Feldman. He
frowned, and a twisted smile curved his lips.
"Feldman, isn't it? You still look something like your pictures. Do you
know the deceased?"
Feldman shook his head bitterly. "No. I don't know his name. I don't
even know why he wasn't cyanotic at the end, if it was space-stomach.
Do you, doctor?"
The old man threw a startled glance at the corpse. Then he shrugged
and nodded to the attendant. "Well, go through his things. If he still has
a space ticket, I can get his name from that."
The kid began pawing through the bag that had fallen from the cot. He
dragged out a pair of shoes, half a bottle of cheap rum, a wallet and a
bronze space ticket. He wasn't quick enough with the wallet, and the
doctor took it from him.
"Medical Lobby authorization. If he has