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they turned upon the
ground.
He stooped again, and caught at something; and again looked up in a
perplexed, half-wondering way.
"Why, Arty!" I exclaimed, catching him up in my arms. "It's only your
shadow! Foolish child!" And I ran back to Mrs. Mayflower, with my
baby-boy held close against my heart.
"After a shadow!" said I, shaking my head, a little soberly, as I resigned
Arty to his mother. "So life begins--and so it ends! Poor Arty!"
Mrs. Mayflower laughed out right merrily.
"After a shadow! Why, darling!" And she kissed and hugged him in
overflowing tenderness.
"So life begins--so it ends," I repeated to myself, as I left the house, and
walked towards my store. "Always in pursuit of shadows! We lose
to-day's substantial good for shadowy phantoms that keep our eyes ever
in advance, and our feet ever hurrying forward. No pause--no ease--no
full enjoyment of now. O, deluded heart!--ever bartering away
substance for shadow!"
I grow philosophic sometimes. Thought will, now and then, take up a
passing incident, and extract the moral. But how little the wiser are we
for moralizing! we look into the mirror of truth, and see ourselves--then
turn away, and forget what manner of men we are. Better for us if it
were not so; if we remembered the image that held our vision.
The shadow lesson was forgotten by the time I reached my store, and
thought entered into business with its usual ardor. I buried myself, amid
letters, invoices, accounts, samples, schemes for gain, and calculations
of profit. The regular, orderly progression of a fair and well-established

business was too slow for my outreaching desires. I must drive onward
at a higher speed, and reach the goal of wealth by a quicker way. So my
daily routine was disturbed by impatient aspirations. Instead of entering,
in a calm self-possession of every faculty, into the day's appropriate
work, and finding, in its right performance, the tranquil state that ever
comes as the reward of right-doing in the right place, I spent the larger
part of this day in the perpetration of a plan for increasing my gains
beyond, anything heretofore achieved.
"Mr. Mayflower," said one of the clerks, coming back to where I sat at
my private desk, busy over my plan, "we have a new man in from the
West; a Mr. B----, from Alton. He wants to make a bill of a thousand
dollars. Do you know anything about him?"
Now, even this interruption annoyed me. What was a new customer and
a bill of a thousand dollars to me just at that moment of time? I saw
tens of thousands in prospective.
"Mr. B----, of Alton?" said I, affecting an effort of memory. "Does he
look like a fair man?"
"I don't recall him. Mr. B----? Hum-m-m. He impresses you favorably,
Edward?"
"Yes, sir; but it may be prudent to send and get a report."
"I'll see to that, Edward," said I. "Sell him what he wants. If everything
is not on the square, I'll give you the word in time. It's all right, I've no
doubt."
"He's made a bill at Kline & Co.'s, and wants his goods sent there to be
packed," said my clerk.
"Ah, indeed! Let him have what he wants, Edward. If Kline & Co. sell
him, we needn't hesitate."
And turning to my desk, my plans, and my calculations, I forgot all
about Mr. B----, and the trifling bill of a thousand dollars that he
proposed buying. How clear the way looked ahead! As thought created
the means of successful adventure, and I saw myself moving forward
and grasping results, the whole circle of life took a quicker motion, and
my mind rose into a pleasant enthusiasm. Then I grew impatient for the
initiatory steps that were to come, and felt as if the to-morrow, in which
they must be taken, would never appear. A day seemed like a week or a
month.
Six o'clock found me in not a very satisfactory state of mind. The ardor

of my calculations had commenced abating. Certain elements, not seen
and considered in the outset, were beginning to assume shape and
consequence, and to modify, in many essential particulars, the grand
result towards which I had been looking with so much pleasure.
Shadowy and indistinct became the landscape, which seemed a little
while before so fair and inviting. A cloud settled down upon it here,
and a cloud there, breaking up its unity, and destroying much of its fair
proportion. I was no longer mounting up, and moving forwards on the
light wing of a castle-building imagination, but down upon the hard,
rough ground, coming back into the consciousness that all progression,
to be sure, must be slow and toilsome.
I had the afternoon paper in my