A Narrative of the Most Remarkable Particulars in the Life of James Albert Ukawsaw Gronniosaw, an A | Page 9

I was treated with ridicule or contempt, I used to
come here and find peace. I now began to relish the book my Master
gave me, Baxter's Call to the unconverted, and took great delight in it. I
was always glad to be employ'd in cutting wood, 'twas a great part of
my business, and I follow'd it with delight, as I was then quite alone
and my heart lifted up to GOD, and I was enabled to pray continually;
and blessed for ever be his Holy Name, he faithfully answer'd my
prayers. I can never be thankful enough to Almighty GOD for the many
comfortable opportunities I experienced there.
It is possible the circumstance I am going to relate will not gain credit
with many; but this I know, that the joy and comfort it conveyed to me,
cannot be expressed and only conceived by those who have
experienced the like.

I was one day in a most delightful frame of mind; my heart so
overflowed with love and gratitude to the Author of all my comforts.--I
was so drawn out of myself, and so fill'd and awed by the Presence of
God that I saw (or thought I saw) light inexpressible dart down from
heaven upon me, and shone around me for the space of a minute.--I
continued on my knees, and joy unspeakable took possession of my
soul.--The peace and serenity which filled my mind after this was
wonderful, and cannot be told.--I would not have changed situations, or
been any one but myself for the whole world. I blest God for my
poverty, that I had no worldly riches or grandeur to draw my heart from
Him. I wish'd at that time, if it had been possible for me, to have
continued on that spot for ever. I felt an unwillingness in myself to
have any thing more to do with the world, or to mix with society again.
I seemed to possess a full assurance that my sins were forgiven me. I
went home all my way rejoicing, and this text of scripture came full
upon my mind. "And I will make an everlasting covenant with them,
that I will not turn away from them, to do them good; but I will put my
fear in their hearts that they shall not depart from me." The first
opportunity that presented itself, I went to my old school-master, and
made known to him the happy state of my soul who joined with me in
praise to God for his mercy to me the vilest of sinners.--I was now
perfectly easy, and had hardly a wish to make beyond what I possess'd,
when my temporal comforts were all blasted by the death of my dear
and worthy Master Mr. Freelandhouse, who was taken from this world
rather suddenly: he had but a short illness, and died of a fever. I held
his hand in mine when he departed; he told me he had given me my
freedom. I was at liberty to go where I would.--He added that he had
always pray'd for me and hop'd I should be kept unto the end. My
master left me by his will ten pounds, and my freedom.
I found that if he had lived 'twas his intention to take me with him to
Holland, as he had often mention'd me to some friends of his there that
were desirous to see me; but I chose to continue with my Mistress who
was as good to me as if she had been my mother.
The loss of Mr. Freelandhouse distress'd me greatly, but I was render'd
still more unhappy by the clouded and perplex'd situation of my mind;

the great enemy of my soul being ready to torment me, would present
my own misery to me in such striking light, and distress me with
doubts, fears, and such a deep sense of my own unworthiness, that after
all the comfort and encouragement I had received, I was often tempted
to believe I should be a Cast-away at last.--The more I saw of the
Beauty and Glory of God, the more I was humbled under a sense of my
own vileness. I often repair'd to my old place of prayer; I seldom came
away without consolation. One day this Scripture was wonderfully
apply'd to my mind, "And ye are compleat in Him which is the Head of
all principalities and power."--The Lord was pleas'd to comfort me by
the application of many gracious promises at times when I was ready to
sink under my troubles. "Wherefore He is able also to save them to the
uttermost that come unto God by Him seeing He ever liveth to make
intercession for them. Hebrews x. ver. 14. For by one offering He hath
perfected for